as well.
He led her into his bedroom and motioned for her to get into bed. He hung back, maybe out of deference to her obvious unease. Taking a deep breath, she crawled beneath the covers and turned so she’d face away from him when he got in.
The bed dipped behind her, and she felt his warmth as soon as he slid beneath the covers. He moved about for a few seconds and then the next thing she knew, he was flush against her back.
He wrapped one arm over her and pulled her in close. He nuzzled her hair before resting his cheek over her ear.
It was all she could do not to break down. It had been so long and it felt so right. Just like so many other nights in his arms. She’d missed him. Unbelievably, she’d missed him.
“No past,” he murmured in her ear. “Just us. Right now.”
She closed her eyes. It had been stupid to agree not to bring up the past. They might not talk about it but it loomed over them like a cloak of doom. It lay between them, awkward and unwieldy. There was no forgetting the past.
What they were doing was called denial. And it wasn’t particularly effective.
He kissed her neck and snuggled a little closer. He cupped his hand over her belly affectionately. But the moment was bittersweet. This was how it should have been between them all along.
“Relax and go to sleep, Kell. I just want to hold you.”
And oddly enough it was what she wanted too.
When Kelly opened her eyes, the first thing that registered was how comfortable she was. And warm. The second thing she realized was that she was on top of Ryan.
Not just on top of him, but sprawled across him as if she owned him. Her cheek was plastered to his shoulder and her forehead pressed against the side of his neck.
It was the way she’d woken every morning when they’d lived together.
Appalled that she could betray herself like this, she started to ease away but Ryan tightened his arm around her.
“Don’t go. This is nice.”
She raised her head and stared into eyes that were unclouded with sleep. Evidently he’d been awake for a while and content to lie there with her draped over him like a blanket.
“One thing hasn’t changed,” he said as he touched her cheek. “You’re still beautiful when you wake up.”
She soaked in the words, her heart tugging at the sincerity in his voice. Before she could question her sanity, she slowly lowered her mouth and touched it tentatively to his.
He seemed surprised and pleased by her taking the initiative. He lay still while she carefully explored his firm mouth.
She licked over the closed seam, and when his lips parted, she slid her tongue lightly over his bottom lip before moving inward to rasp over the end of his tongue.
Strong hands gripped her upper arms, holding her in place as he began to kiss her back. Softly at first, as if he was wooing her, and then harder. His breath sped up and came in little bursts through her mouth.
He sucked at the tip of her tongue and then she nipped at his when he let her go.
Before she realized it, she was on her back and he was over her, his knee between her legs as he devoured her mouth.
Hot. Breathless. Fast and hard and then slow and gentle.
With one hand he popped the two tiny buttons that held the bodice together. The material separated and her breasts strained precariously out of the gown. The satin caught on her hard, erect nipples and he tugged insistently until one breast came completely free.
He cupped the plump mound and then lowered his head, sucking the nipple into his mouth.
A shot of adrenaline slivered through her veins, edgy and sharp. She twisted restlessly beneath him as he sucked harder. She plunged her fingers through his short, cropped hair and then gripped the back of his head, holding him in place as she silently begged for more.
He pulled at her nipple, drawing his head back until the taut nub came free of his mouth. Then he lifted his gaze to meet hers and butterflies scuttled around her belly when she saw the look in his eyes.
“I want to make love to you, Kell. I need you so much. But I won’t do this if it’s only going to make things worse. You have to want this as much as I do.”
“I want it more,” she