left me alone.
Apollo doesn’t leave the kitchen or try and attract my attention again. I sit and eat my sandwich, pretending not to notice the way the boys around me stare as if expecting me to start doing somersaults.
Then Sister Miriam comes up to me, stopping right beside my bench during her usual rounds.
I pause mid-chew and look up at her as my mouthful of cheese-and-tomato sandwich dissolves on my tongue.
My stomach flips over when she hands me a folded note. “What’s this?”
“It’s a note, Miss Malone.” Miriam’s voice could have fixed our little issue with the melting ice caps.
“Thank you?”
But she’s already gone. The boys around have me have all transformed into spotted barn owls. I’m itching to fold open the note and find out what it says, but then anyone at the table could read it.
It looks just like the notes the Brotherhood slips under my door. Same paper, same fold. Probably just a coincidence.
More likely, it’s a note from Father Gabriel.
Gabe.
I twist my mouth to the side and shove the note into my pocket. The dress Sister Ruth made for me feels softer after it’s gone through the laundry a few times. I’m grateful for the thick fabric now. It’s been raining pretty much nonstop since last night, so the temperature inside the dorms has plummeted.
I leave the other half of my sandwich uneaten, and take my tray to the rack filled with empty dishes. I spot Apollo in the window again, but I pretend not to see him beckoning me.
Did they find something on that device? Is that why—?
No, fuck it.
Curiosity killed the cat, hung the monkey, and drowned Trinity Malone.
I’m done looking for answers.
Chapter Thirty
Trinity
I get as far as the prayer room down the hall from the cafeteria. Glancing around, I duck behind the pillars shielding the alcove’s door and tug the note out of my pocket.
I apologize sincerely for my behavior last night. I was out of sorts, and I shouldn’t have handled such a delicate matter the way I did.
Please join me for dinner tonight.
I am sure you have many questions.
I would like to answer them.
Gabriel.
My heart is thundering like a waterfall by the time I reach the end. Did Miriam read this? There’d be no way for her to decipher such a vague letter, but I’m still convinced she knows everything.
I had an affair with—
Fuck!
I crumple up the letter and hurl it away from me, tears blurring my vision. I storm off as fast as my whipping skirts allow, wiping furiously at my eyes as more tears build up.
Why can’t I just be normal?
A normal girl, with a normal family, attending a normal school, with normal friends.
Is that too much to ask, Universe?
Rain batters my face. I glare up at the sullen clouds stretching from horizon to horizon. In their dull light, Saint Amos looks more like Dracula’s castle than ever before.
I spin around and give Saint Amos the finger. Then I stalk over the lawn, heading for the classroom block. I’m early for my next class, but if a brisk walk through the drumming rain can’t clear my head, nothing can.
I was going to skip out on Zachary’s class. I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t have reported me. But I can’t bear the thought of being stuck alone with my thoughts one second longer.
Halfway down the slight incline, my shoe hits a patch of thinning grass and I slip in the mud.
I sit for a moment like that, rainwater soaking through my dress, before I push myself up and carry on walking.
Fuck you, Universe. I’ve had worse.
Don’t have your notes, Trinity. Textbook’s still in your room.
And so what? Let Zachary write me up for detention.
The rain should be steaming off my skin, that’s how mad I am. But all it does is pound down, wet and relentless, until I finally step under cover of the eaves. I shove open the door and storm inside, heading for Zachary’s class.
Breathing hard from climbing the stairs, I pause a second outside his door before going in.
I come to a stop as soon as I’m inside.
He’s at his desk, hand cupping his jaw as he stares at nothing. When he looks up at me, the heavy frown on his face clears in an instant.
He gets to his feet, watching me expectantly.
“What?” I snap. “Did you also forget how to thank someone?” My skirts whisk around my legs as I storm up to him. “It’s easy. You say, ‘thank you,’ and then I tell you to go