human? To feel all the futile weight of mortality? Niall roared and plowed into him again, taking him off his feet, but Evan somehow brought them to the ground again, hard.
A cold blast of water hit Niall square in the face, because he was on top, but Evan got the resulting waterfall in the same place, blinding and dousing both of them.
They broke apart in reaction. Christ, the water had to have come from the creek, because it was frigid enough to freeze his lungs. As one, they saw Alanna standing several paces away, holding the empty bucket. She was deathly pale.
At Evan’s regard, she fell to her knees, bowing her head. She gripped the bucket like she couldn’t let it go. “I’m sorry, Master. It seemed the only way to stop it.”
Evan swiped the water from his brow, considering her. Niall couldn’t read his expression, such that when the vampire stepped toward her, Niall tensed. However, Evan dropped to a knee, covering her clenched hands. “Alanna, it’s not your place to stop an argument between me and my servant.”
She nodded, keeping her head down, her nose almost touching his knuckles. “But you were fighting about me. My fate. I don’t wish to cause anger between you. It’s . . . upsetting to me.” Lifting her face, she gave Evan an earnest searching look, then turned that expression toward Niall.
When she’d told him so calmly that she knew her time was limited, there’d been a flat deadness to her gaze. He expected she’d looked the same when she made the decision to betray her Master. She’d known there was no going back, that her fate was set. She was standing on the cusp of Hell, and the ground would give way under her feet in short order, plunging her into an eternity of torment, and the only way she could manage it was by feeling already dead.
That was not the expression she had now. She wasn’t dead at all, so full of life it made everything in him hurt. He didn’t know if he believed the idea that a servant followed her Master into the afterlife, but, as he’d told Evan, at one time he hadn’t believed in vampires. He could say he didn’t know how she dealt with the possibility that she might spend eternity with the Master she’d betrayed, but he was watching her do it, every day. With grace and strength, as Evan had said—and nightmares that plagued her dreams.
“You’ve been with each other so long,” she continued. “I am so honored, so grateful to have the chance to see . . . to be a part of what you have with your Master, no matter how long my time here lasts. Please don’t fight about who or what I am.”
Niall stared at her, unable to summon any words. Evan touched her face. “Go inside,” he said quietly.
Nodding, she rose. She left the bucket. Evan straightened, watching her disappear back in the cabin. He had his back to Niall. His shirt had been torn, and there was a trickle of blood below his left ear, diluted by the water so it stained the collar. When Evan turned at last, the gray eyes swept over Niall, his own dripping hair, the tense lines of his body.
“You still look fair scunnered, neshama. But I don’t think her nerves will take another round.”
Evan knew a great many languages, and could pull off a Scottish accent passably well, as he proved now, with a faint smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “I know you’re frustrated about the girl’s situation. But stewing about injustices that result in the astonishing conclusion that life isn’t fair is pointless.” He lifted a shoulder. “As for the rest, you know certain things about me, Niall. If a man doesn’t accept a wheel is round, then it does no good for me to tell him it is. He must come to the obvious truth himself.”
The vampire closed the gap between them once more, placed a hand on his shoulder. “But I will tell you what you need to hear. She matters to me. As do you.”
A quick thread of his fingers through Niall’s wet hair, then Evan was gone, likely headed for the bowels of the house. A good thing, since the sun would be showing its dawn rays over the mountain’s edge far too soon.
“Fair scunnered.” Niall snorted to himself, shook his head. As vampires went, Evan had more compassion than most. Niall could usually pick