at the steward.
"There is no betrayal here, of course," Temigast went on. "Except that Meralda did not immediately tell us. For that, you may punish her as you see fit, though I pray you will be generous toward the frightened girl."
Feringal looked at Meralda hard, but he nodded just a bit.
"As for the child," Temigast went on, "it must be announced openly and soon. It will be made clear and binding that this child will not be heir to your throne."
"I will slay the babe as it is born!" Lord Feringal said with a growl. Meralda wailed, as did Priscilla, to Meralda's absolute surprise.
"My lord," said Steward Temigast. Feringal punched his fists against the sides of his legs in utter frustration. Meralda noted his every movement then, and recognized that his claim of murder was pure bluster.
Steward Temigast just shook his head and walked over to pat Lord Feringal's shoulder. "Better to give the babe to another," he said. "Let it be gone from your sight and from your lives."
Feringal stared questioningly at his wife.
"I'm not wanting it," Meralda answered that look with an honest answer. "I'm not wanting to think at all of that night, er, time." She bit her lip as she finished, hoping that her slip of the tongue had not been detected.
To her relief and continued surprise it was Priscilla who stayed close to her, who escorted her to her room. Even when they were out of earshot of Temigast and Lord Feringal, the older woman's gentle demeanor did not waver in the least.
"I cannot guess your pain," Priscilla said.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner."
Priscilla patted her cheek. "It must have been too painful," she offered, "but you did nothing wrong. My brother was still your first lover, the first man to whom you gave yourself willingly, and a husband can ask no more than that."
Meralda swallowed the guilt she felt, swallowed it and pushed it aside with the justification that Feringal was, indeed, her first true lover, the first man she'd lain with who had honest feelings for her.
"Perhaps we will come to some agreement when the child is born," Priscilla said unexpectedly.
Meralda looked at her strangely, not quite catching on.
"I was thinking that perhaps it would be better if I found another place to live," Priscilla explained. "Or took a wing of the castle for myself, perhaps, and made it my own."
Meralda squinted in puzzlement, then it hit her. She was so shocked that her previous peasant dialect came rushing back. "Ye're thinking o' taking the babe for yerself," she blurted.
"Perhaps, if we could agree," Priscilla said hesitantly.
Meralda had no idea of how to respond but suspected she wouldn't know until after the child was born. Would she be able to have the baby anywhere near her? Or would she find that she could not part with an infant that was hers, after all?
No, she decided, not that. She would not, could not, keep the child, however she might feel after its birth.
"We plan too far ahead," Priscilla remarked as if reading Meralda's mind. "For now we must make sure you eat well. You are my brother's wife now and will give him heirs to the throne of Auckney. We must keep you healthy until then."
Meralda could hardly believe the words, the genuine concern. She had never expected this level of success with her plan, which only made her feel even more guilty about it all.
And so it went for several days, with Meralda believing that things were on a steady course. There were a few rough spots, particularly in the bedroom, where she had to constantly assuage her husband's pride, insisting that the barbarian who had savaged her had given her no pleasure at all. She even went to the extent of claiming that she was practically unconscious throughout the ordeal and wasn't even sure it had happened until she came to realize that she was with child.
Then one day, Meralda encountered an unexpected problem with her plan.
"Highwaymen do not travel far," she heard Lord Feringal tell Temigast as she joined the two in the drawing room.
"Certainly the scoundrels are nowhere near Auckney," the steward replied.
"Close enough," Feringal insisted. "The merchant Galway has a powerful wizard for hire."
"Even wizards must know what to look for," Temigast remarked.
"I don't remember his face," Meralda blurted, hurrying to join them.
"But Liam Woodgate does," said Feringal, wearing the smug smile of one who intended to find his revenge.
Meralda worked very hard to not appear distressed.
Chapter 21