don’t know how this one is going to go.”
“That bad?” When she shrugged, he said, “If there’s anything I can do…”
“Well, actually…”
“Name it.”
She reached out, took his hand, and turned it over so the palm was facing up. It was a while before she spoke, but as he was beginning to get worried, she said, “I want you to entertain, just for a moment, that it might have been upsetting for you to see Selena almost die and for you to witness Trez’s pain. I want you to consider that it is not business as usual, for anyone, to have to go through some house they’ve never been in before, not knowing whether an explosion or an ambush is going to kill them or someone they cared about. I want you to reflect that going to Wrath and not being able to tell him that you’d found the Bastards or disarmed something or captured some kind of information might feel like a failure. And finally, I want you to understand that for you to come home and see Layla passed out, and know that she’s pregnant, and care about her and Qhuinn and Blay, is yet another trauma. I think you’ve had a really hard twenty-four hours, and that your emotions have kind of tapped out on you.”
“I didn’t feel upset, though, my Mary. By any of it. I was just fine—”
“Until you had the panic attack in front of the house.”
“I didn’t have a panic attack.”
“You said you couldn’t breathe. That your hands and feet were tingling. That you were having trouble connecting to reality. Sounds like a classic panic attack to me.”
He shook his head. “I don’t think that was it.”
“Okay.”
Rhage took a deep breath and focused on his beloved’s face. “You are the most beautiful female I have ever seen.”
“I’m pretty sure that isn’t—”
He captured her face in his hands, cradling her with care. As his eyes roamed around her familiar features, he couldn’t get enough of them. God, it was never enough. Not a night, a month, a year, a decade … not the eternity the Scribe Virgin had miraculously given them both, was ever going to be enough for him.
“You are the most beautiful female I have ever seen.” He brushed her lips with his own. “I don’t know what I did to deserve a destiny with you, but I will never, ever take that for granted.”
The smile he got in response was better than the sunrise he would never see, shaming even that great glowing fireball that was the sustainer of all life, including even those who could not bear its rays.
They were still sitting like that, staring into each other’s eyes, when the doggen came in for dessert.
“You wanna go upstairs,” he said in a dark, deep voice, his beast starting to surge under his skin. “I’m ready for dessert.”
Her scent flared. “Are you.”
“Mmm-hmm.”
“You want me to get you some ice cream?”
He narrowed his stare on her mouth. “Not even close. I want to lick something else.”
“Well, then,” she whispered, putting her mouth to his. “Let’s get you fed.”
TWENTY-SIX
Cold sweat.
Trez woke up in an absolute cold sweat, every inch of his skin drenched, his core temperature all arctic, his heart going so fast it felt like someone had swapped the thing for a cake mixer. Bursting up off the pillows, he shouted—
Bedroom. Instead of something terrible and shocking … all he saw was a whole lot of his bedroom, and everything was on the normal-normal, from the lamp that was glowing next to him, to his clothes draped over the chaise lounge, to his shoes askew from where he’d kicked them off the other dawn.
For a moment, he was confused. Scribe Virgin. Some strange, mystical place. Selena in the grass, in the clinic, frozen, frozen—
A soft moan shattered the straddle between nightmare and reality.
Jerking around, he saw Selena lying in his bed, her naked shoulders showing above the sheets, her dark hair loose over his white pillowcase, her face and body turned away from him.
Closing his eyes, he sagged, and wished it had all just been a bad dream.
But then he refocused and got about his female, pulling the duvet up higher to keep her warm, discreetly leaning over and reassuring himself she was still breathing, wondering if he should go find some food for her.
As if she sensed his presence, she rolled over, her face tightening in her sleep like it hurt her to move.
Fuck. The sex had been out of control,