right now.”
God, they were down to only a couple of nights left in the mourning period. And then …
One nightmare at a time, iAm thought. His brother was right.
“Listen,” iAm said. “I’m just a phone call away. You need anything, you hit me.”
“Thanks, my man.”
They clapped palms, and Trez offered a dead smile. “You look like Santa Claus.”
On that note, his brother left.
iAm sat there for a while, the uneven rim of the tub and the marble ledge making his butt feel like someone was hitting it with a two-by-four over and over again.
It was the saddest commentary that Trez was more focused on the funeral than the mating ceremony.
For a moment, he considered canceling his own … date. Or whatever it was with maichen. But he could just as easily wait by the phone in her company.
Naked company.
As he stood up and went to the sinks, he grabbed his Gillette eight hundred–bladed whatever and started de-Santa’ing himself. The guilt that he felt about heading off for a couple of hours of sex while his brother was suffering like this was enough to make him want to throw up.
His entire life had been in service to the male, and thinking of himself and what he wanted for his own shit was like exercising a limb that had been in a cast for decades: It seemed uncomfortable, unsure, unlikely to sustain weight.
But he felt kind of like Trez did … as if there was a limited time to enjoy what he had before everything changed and not for the better.
Trez might not want to think about it. But his time for reckoning with the s’Hisbe was going to come whether he acknowledged it or not. Their parents had been stripped of their station and their ill-gotten gains for essentially selling Trez to the Queen. There were no other levers to pull on that front—even if their mother and father were tortured and killed? Which had been brought up nine months ago? It had been no motivator for Trez or himself. And the s’Hisbe must have realized that because that was the last either of them had heard of that line of threats.
Impossible to get emotional about two people who had allowed you to be jailed your entire life—just so they could rise to be Primaries at court.
One thing he knew for certain? As the time for the ritual mating came due, the Queen was going to take things to a higher level. Which meant both he and Trez were going to have to watch their backs.
Probably a good idea to encourage any dating scenarios to stick close to home. Or, preferably, in the compound itself.
Shit, Trez was going to hate that.
“Hmmmm.”
As Trez let out a purr, Selena pivoted around in the closet. He had materialized behind her, his arms crossed over his chest, his body tilted against the jamb.
“Well, hello,” she said.
“I love what you’re wearing.”
“I don’t have anything on.”
“Exactly.”
He came forward, turning her to face him and drawing her closer. “Gimme.”
His kiss was forceful, his hips thrusting into her, his arousal a very good indicator that they were in danger of being late.
She laughed and pushed at his solid chest. “Aren’t we supposed to be at the jeweler’s in a half hour?”
“Who cares.”
As if she were going to say no?
Wrapping her arms around his neck, she let herself get loose. Or … as loose as she could become. Even with the pills that she’d taken two doses of, her joints were aching all over, her body’s battle reaching the point where her mind was being brought into the fight, the sensations no longer a figment of paranoia, but an actual, dogged drag.
The good news? The lust she felt was so loud and pervasive it overrode everything else.
Trez picked her up and carried her back to the bed. Laying her out flat, he kissed her deeply, his hands caressing her breasts and thumbing at her nipples, his pelvis pushing and retreating. When she was writhing underneath his weight, he broke off from her lips and began a slow descent down her body, lingering to lick and suck, heading for her sex.
She called out his name as contact was made, spreading herself wide for him, drinking in the sensations of his wet mouth on her core. The orgasm was a beautiful series of contractions, pleasure vibrating through her, filling her out on the inside.
And all the while, he watched her, his eyes looking up from where he was, his hands cupping her