anyone again. It wasn’t fair to him, but it was the truth. I didn’t know how to convey that without insulting him either.
“It was fine to fuck me just out of your relationship?” There was an edge to his voice.
“It’s easier to get my head around. There were no expectations.” My words barely more than a croak.
“I don’t want to stay in that space. I want more than that, Aiden.”
I wanted it, too. I turned the cup in my hands. I was scared. Scared to open myself up, scared my brother would never speak to me again. Scared to trust Jensen.
Neither of us said anything.
I agreed with him but it was hard to get the words out. Hard to admit I wanted more too.
“Okay,” I finally said.
“Okay?” he asked.
“I’m willing to try it. But I don’t want to tell Adam yet. I want to see how things go first.”
“You live with him. Are you going to be able to hide a relationship with me?” He sounded skeptical.
“He’s gone enough. We’ll see how it goes.” I was going to pretend I didn’t have resting guilt face.
“If that’s what you think is best.”
“Have I talked enough?” I felt like I had and I wanted to be curled at his feet.
“Come here.” He patted his thigh.
I pushed to a stand and took my place between his thighs, head laying in his lap. He stroked his fingers through my hair. Words stopped and we sat in comfortable silence while he massaged my scalp. The comfort from his touch doing more than he knew.
Soft was as important as harsh. I’d never met a man who knew me as well as Jensen seemed to know me. It was one of the reasons it was so hard to walk away from this, from him, even if I knew the consequences.
“You did well,” he said. “I’m proud of you.”
“How proud?” I rubbed my face against his thigh, the cotton of his jeans snagging the stubble on my face, making me realize I hadn’t shaved today.
“Do you want me to touch you?”
“Yes.”
“I want to destroy you tonight.” Jensen’s words were husky and laced with need.
My insides tightened. I loved that I caused those reactions in him.
“I don’t think you’ve ever been so romantic.” I looked up to find him already staring, hunger written in his eyes, glinting in the moonlight. The snow reflected the shine, making it nearly as light as daytime.
“You deserve a reward. I think.”
I turned, my chin resting on the cool leather so I could look at him. “Now?”
“Stand up and strip.”
I hopped to my feet, already tugging my shirt off. He laughed, sitting back and I shivered under the intensity of his stare. I felt so sexy under his half-lidded gaze.
I paused after I tossed my shirt aside. Jensen had opened his fly and pushed down his jeans, exposing his cock already dripping precum. I licked my lips and whimpered.
“How long have you been hard?” I asked.
“As long as you’ve had your head in my lap.”
My heart skipped a beat. “Really?”
“Do you have any doubt about what you do to me? I’m hard every time I touch you.”
“Even after all these months?” I asked.
“More so after all these months. I know what’s coming. I can’t help myself.”
I hooked my thumbs into my sweats but he grabbed my wrist, stopping me before I could get them down. My brows pulled, questioning.
“I want to undress you. It’s one of my favorite parts of our time.”
I dropped my hands, lips stretching so wide they hurt. He tugged them down boxers and all, bringing them below my knees, then he took each of my feet, in turn, slipping the material off. I stood in front of him bare and exposed. I flushed, tucking my chin to peer at my feet.
“Why are you hiding?” he asked, grabbing my hip and pulling me forward
“This is the first time you’ve seen me fully naked.”
He searched my face, lips parting. “I’ve seen you like this plenty.”
I shook my head. “Not without my mask.”
“I had you in the shower this morning…”
“Still this is different.”
The realization spread over his face. “This is playing and your face was the most important part.”
I nodded, relieved he understood.
“Because you could hide.” He leaned forward, brushing his soft lips over my stomach.
A shiver ran up my spine. “Yes.”
“Thank you for being vulnerable for me today. Twice.”
My blush spread down my neck and my chest lifted. He laughed against my skin, his warm breath blowing over my cock.
“Like that, do