I expected every night to be nothing but a party, but it’s not like that with this group of friends and I’m thankful. This is exactly what I’d like to have with Logan and our friends back home. I crave it.
“You warm enough?” Madden whispers against my ear. Without giving me a chance to answer, his entire body is wrapped around mine, holding me closer than before. I couldn’t move away if I wanted to. “There… much better.”
“I was fine,” I say quietly. “If you hold me any tighter, you’re going to suffocate me.” But I like it. He just doesn’t need to know that.
“Then I’ll just have to resuscitate you. I’m good at mouth to mouth.” There’s slight humor in his voice, mixed with a bit of seriousness. I swallow, wondering if that’s his way of letting me know he wants to kiss me again.
We’ve already done too much kissing and there’s still a few days to get through. Avoiding kissing him as much as possible for the remainder of the trip is what I need to be doing. Kissing him gets more confusing for me each time it happens.
“I’ll take my chances.”
“Is that right?” He flips us over so that his body is pinning me to the blanket. “And why is that? My mouth getting to you, Nat?”
I suck in a breath when his hard body lowers to lay in between my legs. I don’t have to look to know that eyes are on us, which also means that Madden is most likely going to take this position to his advantage. “Like I said before… no.”
He positions his weight on one elbow, moving his free hand to caress my cheek as he lowers his mouth to just right above mine. “I think we need to test that out.” When I shake my head, he whispers. “Everyone’s watching us. Let me treat you like my girl.”
“You said cuddling,” I point out. “Not making out.”
“Plans change.” I close my eyes when his finger moves to brush a strand of hair behind my ear. “It’s all for show, Nat. If you can’t handle that then clearly you lied about my mouth having no effect on you.”
I can’t let him believe that, so I wrap my arm around his neck and yank him to me, my lips instantly parting for his. The softness of them mixed with the little growl he releases has me pulling him closer and playing my part. Although, at this point, I can’t tell if it’s just for show or partially due to the liquor I’ve consumed tonight. If it was just for show, then why I do feel slightly guilty? Logan agreed to this, I remind myself.
That reminder has me holding onto him even after his tongue dips into my mouth, causing my heart to jumpstart. He tastes of whiskey, cigarettes, and everything I crave right now.
“Holy fuck, Nat,” he breathes when finally breaking the kiss. “Either you’re really good at acting or you’re beginning to enjoy my mouth on yours. Which is it?”
“Stop talking and get off of me,” I say quietly.
He rolls off me and immediately pulls me back into his arms, his warm, hard body surrounding every inch of me. He’s giving me something I’ve craved from his brother since we started dating, and for that, I’m angry at him. Angry that this is pretend and angry that when I get back home, I’ll go back to not having this.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Madden
Everyone’s been lost in the music, just drinking and relaxing for the last hour, and here I am still thinking about the way Natalie tasted. I expected her to reject my tongue, but instead, her kiss became needy as if she wanted it just as much as I did.
It’s been fucking with my head since the moment I pulled away. I wanted to keep going and I almost did, but then I had to remind myself that Natalie isn’t my girl. She’s Logan’s. I knew I’d have to twist the rules a little, but when I first told myself that, I didn’t realize just how much I’d like it.
“Anyone need anything from inside?” Jess says, breaking the silence as she stands up.
“No, I’m good,” Alana says from Riley’s arms where she’s been trying to make me jealous and failing. “I think I’m about to call it a night and watch some TV.” Her attention is on me when she stands, and the fact that I don’t react to her pointing out she’s about to