and his stupid good looks with his stupidly handsome face and stupid big… smile.
I blacked out. How much I wanted him made me throw all caution to the wind, and now that I’ve had a taste of him, how can I go back?
“Stop it.” He grabs me by the arm and tugs me to lie down next to him. “You’re overthinking. There’s no reason to freak out or overanalyze this. I don’t regret what happened.” He wraps his muscular arm around my shoulders, and I settle my cheek on his pec.
How does he have me doing what he wants with so little effort?
“I can’t wait to do that again.” His fingers run through my hair, and his lips find the top of my head to give me a kiss.
I smile in disbelief and bury my face against him. “Really?”
His fingers skim down my spine, and a rumble in his chest shakes my cheek. His palm flattens and squeezes my ass. “Fuck yes, and I can’t wait to get in here.” He slips his finger down the crease, and he swirls the tip around the puckered star, making me gasp. I wiggle against him, and he gives me a light slap. “Not right now. You’ll run out of here with your head on fire, and it’s the l last thing I want.”
He’s right. I’d run away because the truth is easier to ignore than to face it, and I know the more I let him in, the harder it will be to run.
And when he realizes he’s done with me, he’ll be the one running away while I’m stuck with my feet in the mud.
Rainbow exhales, and his breath tickles my nose. He sounds content. Rainbow confuses me. He says he’s into this, and it isn’t a problem, but I just don’t see how that’s possible.
“So, tell me what happened to your beautiful face,” he says casually, drifting those wide fingers up and down my arm.
I know this is a topic I can’t get away from, a story I’ll have to tell him eventually. So why not now? I draw circles on his stomach with my finger and watch as his abs tense before relaxing once more. I follow the valleys and hills, watching my finger rise and fall over all eight of his beautiful, sculpted abs.
“I wasn’t ignoring you last night,” I admit. “I woke up from a nap after my shift and found my ex in my room.”
He flips to his side and readjusts my head so I’m lying on the pillow. “What the hell are you talking about? You didn’t let him in? He was just there?” He grips my chin and forces me to look at him. “He did this you?”
I nod, ashamed. “I’m the typical twink who can’t protect himself,” I try to joke, but the truth is in those words. I really do feel that way. I’ve never been the fighting type physically. It’s why I’m so sassy, as Rainbow puts it.
“Hey, don’t talk like that.” He strokes those knuckles over my cheek again. That simple gesture is becoming one of my favorite things. “Don’t blame yourself for being who you are. I love that you’re smaller than me.” He grips my hip and yanks me close to his body. “I love that I can manhandle you, and anyone who takes advantage of that, anyone who doesn’t appreciate that, has officially become number one on my list to kill.”
I snort. I don’t expect anyone to kill for me. I can’t figure out why I’m not more disturbed by the offer, but let’s chalk it up to being too high on my orgasm instead of admitting to being a crazy person.
“Hey, I’m serious,” he continues, trying to inch closer, but there’s no more room for him. “Anyone who hurt you has to deal with me, so tell me what happened. Don’t leave anything out.” He continues to stroke along my jaw and cheeks.
I sigh and snuggle into his embrace. “Something shattering on the ground woke me up from my nap. I didn’t have time to check my phone. I crawled out of bed and peeked out my bedroom door to see my ex Trenton rifling through my things. I forgot I had told him I was coming to Baton Rouge. He’s from this area, and when we broke up he came back here. It’s been over for a long time, over a year. I thought he was stuffing himself back in the closet to be with