was burning up, feverish. She reeled, suddenly dizzy. She felt full to bursting with heat; she had to dispel it, force it out somewhere or she’d surely die, but the only place to put it was in the bodies of everyone else around her—
Something deep inside her rational mind screamed.
Raban reached for her as she climbed up out of the ring. “Rin, what—”
She shoved his hand away.
“Move,” she panted. “Move.”
But the masters crowded around her, a hubbub of voices—hands reaching, mouths moving. Their presence was suffocating. She felt if she screamed she could disintegrate them entirely, wanted to disintegrate them—but the very small part of her that was still rational reined it in, sent her reeling for the exit instead.
Miraculously they cleared a path for her. She pushed her way through the crowd of apprentices and ran to the stairwell. She barreled up the stairs, burst out the door of the main hall into the cold open air, and sucked in a great breath.
It wasn’t enough. She was still burning.
Ignoring the shouts of the masters behind her, she set off at a run.
Jiang was in the first place she looked, the Lore garden. He was sitting cross-legged, eyes closed, still as the stone he sat upon.
She lurched through the garden gates, gripping at the doorpost. The world swirled sideways. Everything looked red: the trees, the stones, Jiang most of all. He flared in front of her like a torch.
He opened his eyes to the sound of her crashing through the gate. “Rin?”
She had forgotten how to speak. The flames within her licked out toward Jiang, sensed his presence like a fire sensed kindling and yearned to consume him.
She became convinced that if she didn’t kill him, she might explode.
She moved to attack him. He scrambled to his feet, dodged her outstretched hands, and then upended her with a deft throw. She landed on her back. He pinned her to the ground with his arms.
“You’re burning,” he said in amazement.
“Help me,” she gasped. “Help.”
He leaned forward and cupped her head in his hands.
“Look at me.”
She obeyed with great difficulty. His face swam before her.
“Great Tortoise,” he murmured, and let go of her.
His eyes rolled up in the back of his head and he began uttering indecipherable noises, syllables that didn’t resemble any language she knew.
He opened his eyes and pressed the palm of his hand to her forehead.
His hand felt like ice. The searing cold flooded from his palm to her forehead and into the rest of her body, through the same rivulets the flame was coursing through; arresting the fire, stilling it in her veins. She felt as if she’d been doused in a freezing bath. She writhed on the floor, breathing in shock, trembling as the fire left her blood.
Then everything was still.
Jiang’s face was the first thing she saw when she regained consciousness. His clothes looked rumpled. There were deep circles under his eyes, as if he hadn’t slept in days. How long had she been asleep? Had he been here the entire time?
She raised her head. She was lying in a bunk in the infirmary, but she wasn’t injured, as far as she could tell.
“How do you feel?” Jiang asked quietly.
“Bruised, but okay.” She sat up slowly and winced. Her mouth felt like it was filled with cotton. She coughed and rubbed at her throat, frowning. “What happened?”
Jiang offered her a cup of water that had been sitting beside her bunk. She took it gratefully. The water sluiced down her dry throat with the most wonderful sensation.
“Congratulations,” Jiang said. “You’re this year’s champion.”
His tone did not sound congratulatory at all.
Rin felt none of the exhilaration that she should have, anyway. She couldn’t even relish her victory over Nezha. She didn’t feel the least bit proud, just scared and confused.
“What did I do?” she whispered.
“You have stumbled upon something that you’re not ready for,” said Jiang. He sounded agitated. “I never should have taught you the Five Frolics. From this point forward you’re just going to be a danger to yourself and everyone around you.”
“Not if you help me,” she said. “Not if you teach me otherwise.”
“I thought you just wanted to be a good soldier.”
“I do,” she said.
But more than that, she wanted power.
She had no idea what had happened in the ring; she would be foolish not to feel terrified by it, and yet she had never felt power like it. In that instant, she had felt as if she could defeat anyone. Kill anything.
She wanted