and she was traversing through them . . .
And then they were hurtling upward.
She hadn’t known what she had expected. Not once in two years of training had Jiang guided her into the spirit realm. It had always been her mind alone, her soul alone in the void, journeying up toward the gods.
With Chaghan, she felt as if a piece of her had been ripped away, was clutched in the palm of his hand, being taken somewhere of his choosing. She was immaterial, without body or form, but Chaghan was not; Chaghan remained as solid and real as before, perhaps even more so. In the material world, he was gaunt and emaciated, but in the realm of spirit he was solid and present . . .
She understood, now, why Chaghan and Qara had to be two halves of a whole. Qara was grounded, material, fully made of earth. To call them anchor twins was a misnomer—she alone was the anchor to her ethereal brother, who belonged more in the realm of spirit than he did in a world of flesh and blood.
The route to the Pantheon was familiar by now, and so was the gate. Once again the Woman materialized in front of her. But something was different this time; this time the Woman was less like a ghost and more like a corpse; half her face was torn away, revealing bone underneath, and her warrior’s garb had burned away from her body.
The Woman stretched a hand out toward Rin in supplication.
“It’ll eat you alive,” she said. “The fire will consume you. To find our god is to find hell on earth, little warrior. You will burn and burn and never find peace.”
“How curious,” said Chaghan. “Who are you?”
The Woman whirled on him.
“You know who I am,” she said. “I am the guardian. I am the Traitor and the Damned. I am redemption. I am the girl’s last chance for salvation.”
“I see,” Chaghan murmured. “So this is where you’ve been hiding.”
“What are you talking about?” Rin demanded. “Who is she?”
But Chaghan spoke past her, directly to the woman. “You should have been immured in the Chuluu Korikh.”
“The Chuluu Korikh can’t hold me,” hissed the Woman. “I am a Speerly. My ashes are free.” She reached out and stroked Rin’s damaged cheek like a mother caressing her child. “You don’t want me gone. You need me.”
Rin shuddered at her touch. “I need my god. I need power, and I need fire.”
“If you call it now, you will bring down hell on earth,” the Woman warned.
“Khurdalain is hell on earth,” said Rin. She saw Nezha screaming in the fog, and her voice wavered.
“You don’t know what true suffering is,” the Woman insisted angrily.
Rin curled her fingers into fists at her sides, suddenly pissed off. True suffering? She had seen her friends stabbed with halberds, shot full of arrows, cut down with swords, burned to death in poisonous fog. She had seen Sinegard go up in flames. She had seen Khurdalain occupied by Federation invaders almost overnight.
“I have seen more than my fair share of suffering,” she hissed.
“I’m trying to save you, little one. Why can’t you see that?”
“What about Altan?” Rin challenged. “Why haven’t you ever tried to stop him?”
The Woman tilted her head. “Is that what this is about? Are you jealous of what he can do?”
Rin opened her mouth, but nothing came out. No. Yes. Did it matter? If she had been as strong as Altan, he wouldn’t have been able to restrain her.
If she were as strong as Altan, she could have saved Nezha.
“That boy is beyond redemption,” said the Woman. “That boy is broken like the rest. But you, you are still pure. You can still be saved.”
“I don’t want to be saved!” Rin shrieked. “I want power! I want Altan’s power! I want to be the most powerful shaman there ever was, so that there is no one I can’t save!”
“That power can burn down the world,” the Woman said sadly. “That power will destroy everything you’ve ever loved. You will defeat your enemy, and the victory will turn to ashes in your mouth.”
Chaghan had finally regained his composure.
“You have no right to remain here,” he said. His voice trembled slightly as he spoke, but he raised one thin hand toward the Woman in a banishing gesture. “You belong to the realm of the dead. Return to the dead.”
“Do not try,” sneered the Woman. “You cannot banish me. In my time I have bested shamans far more