cock.
His hands clamped around the armrests of his chair. His hips surged toward her even as he ground his teeth together. Her head dipped toward him. Her hair slid over her cheek as she opened her mouth wider and took him inside.
He could not look away from her. She was the most gorgeous woman he’d ever seen in his life, and her mouth was a heaven that was designed to destroy a sinner like him.
She licked and sucked, and he nearly tore the armrests right off the chair. When she gave a little moan in her throat and the vibration swept along the length of his cock, he was a goner.
He grabbed her. Scooped her up and put her on the desk. Pushed her thighs apart and holy hell—no panties. Her sex was open and waiting. He plunged deep inside of her. Ella’s hands flew back and shoved against the desk. Hit the computer. Her hips heaved up to meet him and they surged frantically toward release. Her eyes were on his. He couldn’t look anywhere but at her.
And as they drove toward climax, he kept thinking…
Mine. Mine. I need Ella to be mine.
Always…mine.
She cried out as she came. Her sex squeezed him and sent him barreling into his own release. When it was over, when the last drop of pleasure had poured from him, Antony realized that his hands were clamped hard around Ella’s hips. Too hard.
He released her. Slid out of her sweet core.
She stared up at him. Smiled.
Her smile was a punch straight to his heart.
“I’ve thought about doing that more times than you can guess,” Ella confessed.
She’d…what?
He hauled up his sweatpants. Plopped down in the chair.
She leaned forward and straightened his glasses. “These always drove me crazy.” A satisfied smile curled her lips and lit her eyes. “You drove me crazy.”
If he’d known what she was fantasizing about… “I never would have made it two years before kissing you.”
Her eyebrows climbed.
“You could’ve had me any time you wanted,” Antony said. “Baby, don’t you get it? I’ve been yours the whole time.”
Ella shook her head.
“The whole time,” Antony repeated firmly. She needed to know this. Know everything. “Ella, I love you.”
Chapter Nineteen
Ella’s eyes widened. “I thought you said it before.” Her voice was husky. “Last night. But things were intense.”
Understatement.
“I wasn’t sure if you said you fucking loved me or you loved fucking me.”
A laugh burst from him. “Sweetheart.” He gazed at her as she sat on his desk. “Let me be as clear as possible.” Now he rose. Towered over her. “I absolutely, one hundred percent love fucking you. Love it so much that I’d prefer to stay buried balls deep in you every minute.” He kissed her. A slow, tongue-thrusting, breath-stealing, sensual kiss. “But I also just love you. Why do you think I raced after you? Why do you think I schemed and worked so hard to get you close to me again? It was never just about sex. It was always about you.”
His Ella. The woman who owned every single piece of him.
His hand rose and slid against her cheek. “There is nothing in this world I would not do for you.” Nothing. “But you were right to run.”
“Antony—”
“I’m not the tech guy the world sees. I went to work with Dex because I like the jobs. I like the danger. And I was good at what I did. Maybe too good.” That worried him. He’d slipped into shadows far easier than he’d ever imagined. He’d grown up in a loving, stable home. His parents doted on him. He adored—and was probably far too protective of—his little sister. But he’d taken to the darkness easily. The brutality of the missions. The ease of switching identities. Everything had been easy for him.
Ella had said she’d refused Dex’s offer because she hadn’t wanted to pretend to be someone else.
He’d taken the offer because with Dex, Antony could finally be who he really was.
“After a while, you can get addicted to the rush.” Adrenaline was better than any drug. “The places roll together. The missions consume you. I was slipping between two worlds. Going darker and darker, then I looked up, and you were in front of me.”
Her teeth bit down on her lower lip.
“I want you more than I want the dark. I want you more than anything. Let’s see what can happen with us this time, Ella. No lies between us. No walls. You see me, and I see you. And we go from