bed, rested his head in his hands, and tried to figure out how in the fuck things had gone to shit when he was trying to avoid just that.
8
“You’re serious?” Five said at the same time he leaned forward and rested his forearms on his thighs.
“Yeah I’m fucking serious for the fourth time.” Jacks looked at Beats and Matty before bringing his attention back to Five. He had gotten up early and got the rest of the band up to talk to them about this. Jacks had to walk over bodies as they had been spread out across the master living room just to try to find Five and Matty.
Beats had been in a room across the hall, and he had been acting funny ever since Jacks had gotten him up, but Beats refused to talk about it when Jacks probed.
He better not be using again.
Although he worried about his friend even two years after he had gone into rehab, he tried to trust Beats that he was staying straight. There were naked chicks strewn across guys, beer and liquor bottles littering the floor, and even coke residue covering the glass coffee table.
This was a fucked up scene, and one he didn’t want Beats to have to deal with if he was feeling weak, but when he looked at the drummer all he saw was this apathetic expression covering his face. When he realized he wanted to broach the subject with them last night he had been anxious to get this shit rolling.
“What does Tanner have to say about all of this? She cool with it?” Matty asked in a gravelly voice that sounded like he probably hadn’t gotten much sleep last night. Hell, Jacks bet they had gotten no more than a couple of hours before he busted in on them and woke their asses up.
Jacks looked over at Matty, and although his eyes were closed and he looked like shit—as did the other two—he knew that he was still with them. “I wanted to run it by you guys first. Why bring it up to her if you didn’t want her to join in?”
Matty opened his eyes then, and turned his head to look at Beats and Five. “Shit, I’m good with having Tanner come along, but she needs to know that being on tour will show her a lot of stuff in the music industry that she may not approve of.” He scrubbed a hand over his face. “I mean what she saw last night was nothing compared to the fucking carnage of being on the road and touring.”
Yeah, that was going to have to be something that they talked about, because although touring and what they did was about the music, they also had the screaming fans, the drugs and booze that were always right in front of them even if they didn’t want it, and of course the sex being freely thrown their way.
There was a lot of dirty, random sex, and although she had seen some of that at the party last night, being on the tour bus, at those concerts, and in the thick of it backstage was a whole other world.
“Where is she now?” Five asked. He sighed and threw his legs up on the couch so he could sprawl out.
“In one of the other rooms.” Right now Jacks and the rest of the band were in a sitting room that held a kitchenette and living room, but even then they had to kick out the two people that had been naked and sleeping on the floor.
“Other rooms?” Five cracked an eye open and looked at Jacks. “I know for a fact she isn’t in the one Beats put Zoe up in last night, and she isn’t in the master suite.” Five didn’t break Jacks’s stare, and he knew that the band’s bass player was already thinking of all sorts of shit. “Where did you sleep last night?”
“What difference does it make?” Jacks leaned back in his chair. “That isn’t even what we are talking about right now.”
Five shrugged and closed his eyes once more. “I’m just wondering if the two of you shacked up for the night. I mean I saw the way you were checking her out, man.”
Jacks felt the gazes of Matty and Beats on him now.
“What did I miss?” Beats asked in this weird tone.
“We aren’t going to go there. And you didn’t miss anything, Beats.” He wasn’t going to get into this with them, at least not