love you.”
We spent the rest of the night holding each other. It was the most amazing night I had had in my twenty-six years. Jaxon and I were in love and nothing could change that.
The next morning when I woke up, I was suddenly panicked. Last night I was so happy to be with Jaxon that I never even thought about it. How did I not think about it? After what happened with Declan, how could I have not thought about a condom? I had never needed birth control before. I honestly didn’t think about it last night. But why didn’t Jaxon? He knew why he was coming over. He knew I hadn’t been with anyone in ten years. He had to know that I wasn’t on birth control.
I had to ask, “Baby, are you awake?”
He peeked at me with one eye, “Yeah, everything okay, babe?”
I just needed to spit it out. We had just spent the night together, so why was asking him this question so embarrassing?
I finally just blurted it out, “Um, why didn’t you use protection last night?”
He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, “I’m clean, Lor. I knew your history and knew you were too.”
That didn’t really answer the big question though, did it? I didn’t want to get pregnant again, especially not this early in our relationship. With the twins I could write it off as being a careless teenager, but this would be different. “What about getting me pregnant? I’m really not ready for that, Jaxon.”
“I’m sorry, Lor. I don’t know what else to say. I just wasn’t thinking.” That didn’t really calm my nerves any, but I guess it was the best answer I was going to get.
We really needed to get to work. We didn’t want to leave each other, but we knew we would be able to see each other all day.
The next week was great. Jaxon and I spent as much time together as we could. I thought it might be awkward between us, but it was the opposite. It was so easy to talk to him, to be with him. Actually, we wanted to be together all the time. But that was kinda hard to do with the kids and the farm. But we tried to eat lunch together every day.
I was sitting at my desk that morning, when he walked in. He sauntered over to me, picked me up out of my chair, and sat me down on the desk, he slid in between my legs and kissed me so passionately, “I’ve missed you, baby.”
He was doing all of the right things, in all the right places. Before I knew it we were panting and had moved past heavy petting when all of a sudden the door flew open. Jaxon’s eyes shot up and he got this look on his face. This look that said he had been caught doing something he wasn’t supposed to do.
He backed away from me and went running toward the door. I looked over and saw a beautiful blonde woman standing in the doorway with tears in her eyes. She was a very small woman with a perfect body, long blonde hair, and she was wearing a shorter than short mini-skirt with a barely there halter top with 4 inch stilettos. She looked even more out of a place on a farm than Jaxon did.
She screamed at me, “Who the hell are you?” I couldn’t understand why she was so mad at me, why she was crying, or why Jaxon was just standing there staring at her.
“I’m Loralei, and you’re in my office. So, I think I should ask the questions. Who the hell are you?”
The words that came from her mouth literally made my heart break. “I’m his wife.” She pointed at Jaxon. He looked over at me and didn’t say a word. I couldn’t help the tears that came into my eyes.
He finally spoke, “Stacy, please wait outside. I need to speak to Loralei.”
Stacy replied “Like hell I will, you fucking bastard! What the hell are you doing with your tongue down her throat, you’re my husband, you asshole!”
“Don’t worry about it, I’ll leave you two alone,” I said on my way out the door. Jaxon didn’t try to stop me, and I was actually glad he didn’t. I was too upset to talk to him. I really didn’t want him to see how much this was affecting me. How much he was able to hurt me.
When I got