I took a swig of my beer and grinned at her.
We were having such a good time. I didn’t want it to end, so when the skanky waitress came over I ordered us a couple more beers. Boy that pissed Loralei off. She shot me a look
“I know, pinky- swear and all, but I’m really having a good time getting to know you. And it’ll take more than a couple of beers to get me drunk.”
She finally agreed and I asked her, “Wanna dance?”
I could tell by the way she tried to slide down under the table and hide, that she didn’t want to dance.
She finally answered, “I don’t really know how to dance.”
This was gonna be fun. “Just follow me, honey, and you’ll be a pro in no time.”
I grabbed her hand and led her out to the dance floor. Damn, she felt so good in my arms. Being this close to her was making me feel weird things. I couldn’t understand what the hell was drawing me to this sweet, innocent woman. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. When she looked up at me – that was it. I was lost to her.
We danced through several songs and then, God, I had to kiss her, taste her. I bent my head down and lightly brushed my lips down her neck right below her ear. I could feel her shudder under my touch. I had to take this slow. I didn’t want to scare her. I leaned in and very gently pressed my lips against hers. She tasted so sweet. I could have kissed her like this all night, but I was greedy, I wanted more. When I tried to slide my tongue into her mouth, she jumped back, screaming, “What the hell?”
Before I knew what was happening she was running toward the bathroom, slamming the door, and then locking it.
I knocked on the door. “I’m so sorry, Loralei. I didn’t mean anything by it.” Damn it, I screwed this up. I went too fast and scared the shit out of her. “Oh, shit I did, I needed to kiss you. I still do. But if you don’t want to, I won’t push you, I promise. Please just open the door and let me in.”
I could hear her lean against the door, “I can’t believe you did that. I didn’t ask you to kiss me. I didn’t want you to kiss me. Why would you do that?”
God damn it! Why did I do that? I fuck up everything. I was having such an amazing time, and then I had to screw it up and push her into something she didn’t want or need. I had to get the hell out of there, and get away from her. I couldn’t stand the thought of hurting her more. I threw some money down on the table to cover our tab, and noticed we left her purse unattended, so I grabbed it and headed to the truck.
I climbed in the truck and slammed the door behind. I laid my head in my hands. What the fuck was wrong with me? I was so damn close to bawling like a baby. Something about this woman was getting to me. I couldn’t do this right now. My life was fucked up and I couldn’t bring this sweet, innocent woman into my hell. I had to stay the hell away from her. That was the only way it could be.
She climbed in the truck. It took me a few minutes before I could even look up at her. “Loralei, I’m so sorry I did that. Something is wrong with me, I fuck up everything. I was having such a great time with you, and I just couldn’t help myself. I wanted to kiss you so bad. I’ve been dreaming about what you would taste like since the first time I saw you on the farm. But you’re scared. I get that. I won’t let it happen again. You can trust me.”
She couldn’t look up at me either, she stared at the floorboard. “It’s okay, let’s just forget this ever happened, alright?”
Yes, that was for the best. We just needed to forget that any of this had ever happened. I nodded and we drove home in silence. I didn’t even want to listen to the radio.
Loralei
When we got home, he dropped me off at my house before he took the supplies out to the barn office to be put away. I decided I really