before. Saying all that shit just now about killed me. I can’t stand the thought of not being with you. Not seeing you every day. I love you and I love the kids and I want to see where this goes. I want us to try for our happily ever after. Don’t you want that too, Lor?”
I wanted to scream “yes” and “I love you too”, but I couldn't say anything. I reached up and swiped my knuckles across his jaw. “Eric is an asshole. He doesn't know what's best for me and the kids. But I do, and I think that's you.”
He kissed me, a sweet, soft, meaningful kiss. A kiss that told me that we were going to be together and that it didn't matter what anyone else thought.
Chapter 6
Loralei
The next few days were great. Jaxon and I spent every minute we could together. The fact that we worked together was really convenient. That's one of the perks of being the boss, you can make-out with your farmhand boyfriend in every possible place you can think of on the farm. The barn, the field, the garage, the garden, my office - so many places, so little time.
I walked into one of the horse stalls and suddenly felt warm breath on the back of my neck.
“Morning, babe,” Jaxon said, placing a kiss on my neck. I felt his tongue as he licked a trail from my ear to my jaw. I shivered from my head to my toes.
“Jaxon, stop. Someone will see us.”
“No, they won’t. Everyone went into town for the sale this morning. We have the barn all to ourselves. Of course, we have to share it with the horses, but I don’t think they’ll mind if we roll around in their hay for a bit.”
I turned to face him. “Did you just insinuate that I would roll around in the hay with you?”
He nuzzled my neck and nipped at my ear. “Why yes, ma’am. I believe I did.” He laughed against my neck and pushed me onto the bales of hay in the corner of the stall.
I giggled as he was fumbling with the buttons on my shirt. “You need help with that, stud?”
Jaxon pulled away. “You know I hate it when the guys call me that, but when you do it, it really turns me on.” The sexy smirk was back. “I’ll make you think stud.” He kissed me hard.
As his tongue thrust into my mouth, I pulled my knees up so I could get him closer to me. He pressed into me and let out the sexiest moan. “God, you feel so good. I want to bury myself inside you, and never come out.”
“Then do it already. Please, Jaxon, I’m ready. I need to be with you.” I was breathing heavy and probably sounded like a crazy person.
“Not like this, Lor. Not out in the barn, literally rolling in the hay. It needs to be special.”
“How about tonight? My parents are keeping the kids. We’d have the whole house to ourselves.”
Before I got the words out of my mouth, he picked me up off of the hay and started swinging me around in circles. “Whoa, calm down stud. I’ll take that as a yes?”
He stopped spinning and sat me down. “Yes, for you the answer is always yes.”
The rest of the afternoon dragged. It seemed like the day would never end. I got home and called my mom to make sure the kids were okay. I told them to get their homework done, be good for their grandparents, have sweet dreams, and mommy would see them tomorrow.
I could do this, right? It’s just sex, Loralei. I tried to tell myself it was just sex, I really did. But it felt like so much more. Like when Declan and I were together, it wasn’t about the sex, it was about our connection. It was about our future. I felt like this night with Jaxon was going to change things.
I was an excited, scared ball of nerves. We were going to be together. He could be my future. And that was huge. If he was going to be in my life, that meant he was also going to be a part of my kid’s lives. I had thought of nothing else since that first night we spent together. I had finally come to the conclusion that I loved him, and he wasn’t going anywhere. So, yeah, I decided I could do this.
I took a long, hot shower.