have to.”
“Good girl.” Butch cleared his throat. “So how you doing?”
“I'm fine.” She wasn't about to have Hard-ass play Dr. Phil on her. There was something about the radiant toughness of Butch O'Neal that made her want to appear strong. “Now, about that car bomb. I hear it was probably plastics, and the detonating mechanism was blown sky-high. Sounds like a professional hit.”
“You eat yet tonight?”
She frowned. “No.”
And considering what she'd pulled down at lunch, she should be skipping breakfast tomorrow morning, too.
Butch got to his feet. “Good. I was just going to hit Tullah's.”
He walked over to the door and held it open for her.
She stayed put. “I'm not having dinner with you.”
“Suit yourself. Guess you don't want to hear about what we found across the alley from that car, then.”
The door slowly eased shut behind him.
She was not going to fall for this. She was not going to—
Beth leaped out of the chair and went after him.
Black Dagger Brotherhood 1 - Dark Lover
Chapter Eight
Standing in her pristine cream-and-white bedroom, Marissa was unsure of herself.
As Wrath's shellan, she could feel his pain and knew by its strength that he must have lost another of his warrior brothers.
If they'd had a normal relationship, there would be no question. She would go to him and try to ease his suffering. She would talk with him or hold him or cry with him. Warm him with her body.
Because that was what shellans did for their mates. What they got in return, too.
She glanced at the Tiffany clock on her bedside table.
He'd be heading off into the night soon. If she wanted to catch him she'd better do it now.
Marissa hesitated, not willing to fool herself. She wasn't going to be welcome.
She wished it were easier to support him, wished she knew what he needed from her. Once, a long time ago, she'd spoken with his brother Tohrment's shellan, hoping Wellsie could offer some hint as to what to do. How to behave. How to make Wrath see her as worthy of him.
After all, Wellsie had what Marissa wanted. A true mate. A male who came home to her. Who laughed and cried and shared his life with her. Who held her.
A male who stayed with her during those torturous, mercifully rare times when she was fertile. Who eased her terrible cravings with his body for as long as the needing period lasted.
Wrath did none of that for or with her. Especially not the last part. As it was, Marissa had to go to her brother for relief of her needing. Havers would put her out cold, tranquilizing her until the urges passed. The practice embarrassed them both.
She'd so hoped that Wellsie could help, but the conversation had been a disaster. The other female's pained looks and carefully couched replies had burned them both, pointing out everything Marissa didn't have.
God, she was so alone.
She closed her eyes, feeling Wrath's pain again.
She had to try to reach him. Because he was hurting. And because what else was there to her life other than him?
She sensed that he was in Darius's mansion. Taking a deep breath, she dematerialized.
Wrath slowly eased off his knees and stood up, hearing his vertebrae crack back into place. He brushed the diamonds off his shins.
There was a knock on the door, and he allowed it to open, thinking it was Fritz.
When he smelled the ocean, he tightened his lips.
“What brings you here, Marissa?” he said without turning to her. He went to the bathroom and covered himself with a towel.
“Let me wash you, my lord,” she murmured. “I'll take care of your skin. I can—”
“I'm fine.”
He was a fast healer. By the end of the night the cuts would barely be discernible.
Wrath walked over to the closet and looked through the clothes. He took out a black long-sleeved shirt, a pair of leather pants, and—jeez, what was this? Oh, not fucking likely. He was not going to fight in BVDs. He'd go commando before he got caught dead in those things.
The first thing he had to do was make contact with Darius's daughter. He knew he was almost out of time, because her transition was coming quick. And then he had to link up with Vishous and Phury to find out what was up with that dead lesser's leftovers.
He was about to drop the towel to get ready to roll, when it occurred to him Marissa was still in the room.
He looked over at her.
“Go home, Marissa,” he said.
Her head