shoes off. “It’ll hurt you,” she continues. “But I don’t much care. I’ll peel your skin back layer by layer, get to the bone, snap it over my knee.”’
“Yeah yeah.”
As soon as her jeans are off and she stands in front of me in tiny panties that make my mouth water, I wrap an arm around her stomach and drag her down to the bed.
“You’re a badass. You’re a thug. Eazy-E was your roommate in college, he taught you shit. I hear you.”
“I could smother you with your own pillow.” She rolls over my body to get to her side of the bed and get comfortable. “And I don’t think Eazy went to college. Some of us were raised in the streets. We don’t need fancy educations to get ahead in life.”
“Q…” Shaking my head, I turn over and pull her into my little spoon. She fights me, she tries to flick my arm off, but I’m stronger than she is, and at least half of her wants my hug. “I didn’t go to college either.”
“You could have. Rich boy has privilege.”
“Instead, I spent four years searching for you.”
I bend my legs up and cup hers, and since I’ve already committed a bunch of felonies, I press a kiss to her shoulder blade and hate myself when her breath comes out on a whimper. Not a pleasured whimper, but the kind where her heart is in actual pain.
“Now shut up and go the fuck to sleep. We have a big day tomorrow.”
“Don’t say no,” she whimpers. “Don’t tell me no.”
“Cam,” I groan. “I can’t… we can’t…” My heart shatters when a tear forms in the corner of her eye. “Dammit, Cam. Don’t do that.”
“Don’t reject me,” she whispers. “Don’t tell me no.”
“We’re not even in a bed.” My words may be saying one thing – no, no, no, and hell no – but my dick wants her. It swells and searches. It throbs so much that it becomes a physical ache. “Cam, you’re worth more than a quickie in a gym.”
“I’m worth whatever it is we can have together.” She rests her feet on the back of my ass, and starts nudging me forward. “Please, Jamie.”
“Cam, stop. Oh god!” I drop my forehead to her bare chest when the tip of my dick finds fiery heat between her legs. “I’m begging you for mercy.”
“I’m begging you for you.” Her voice cracks, but the strength in her legs doesn’t falter. She drags me forward, slowly, carefully, until it’s not just radiating heat I feel. But skin on skin. Fire on fire. “Show me how it can be if we got to have forever,” she whispers.
“Fuck.” I’m powerless to her every wish. Incapable of telling her no, especially when the thing she wants is the thing I would kill for. “Cam…”
“Yes.”
She brings me forward a little more until her breasts go forgotten. A wonderland a moment ago, the most amazing thing I had ever seen. But now they’re superseded by this impossible thing. This impossibly wrong, but amazingly right thing that I wish so desperately I could say yes to.
“I don’t have a condom.” I rest my elbows on each side of her head, lean forward and press a kiss to her lips in apology for my rejection. “Cam.” Another kiss. Another. “I don’t have any protection.”
“I’m due for my period the day after Christmas.” She nudges me a little closer. “It’s okay.”
“Your pe—” I shake my head. “What?”
“It’s okay, Jamie. The timing is all wrong.”
“Cam!” Kill me now. Smite me down. “I don’t want to do anything that would hurt you.”
“I won’t get pregnant or anything.” She shakes her head and swipes a stray tear on my shoulder. “I give you my word. The timing is all wrong, I promise.”
“I don’t…” I stare into her eyes, but I don’t stop my gradual slide inside her vise-like heat as she pulls me in. “I don’t understand what you mean with timing and stuff.” Stall. Stall. Fucking stall! “I don’t get it.”
“You didn’t pay attention in sex ed,” she gives a watery snicker. “You’re gonna have to take my word for it.” And then she throws her head back and moans, because her slickness makes my journey inside much too easy. “Jesus, Jamie.”
“Does that hurt?” I press a kiss to her cheek. Her jawbone. Her throat. “Cam, does it hurt?”
She nods. But she continues to drag me in. “It stings. It’s like you’re pushing against a brick wall, but it stings too.”
“I’ll stop.”