deeply as she sways on her feet. “I love your hands. They’re so strong and masculine. You even have veins in them.”
“Is that so?”
“Mmm-hmm. But do you know what I love the most about them?”
“What?”
“How rough they are while still being caring.” She flattens my palm on her beating heart. “See how much I love it?”
A deep groan escapes my chest as I feel her erratic heartbeat and watch how her cheeks redden to a bright crimson. Lia isn’t the type who lowers her guard or touches me freely. It’s probably the alcohol, but I revel in every moment of her losing her inhibitions.
The night wasn’t a complete waste after all.
Not only do I get to witness this side of her, but I also get to hear her honesty. She’s never allowed herself to get drunk around me after that first time in the restaurant. It’s like she’s scared about letting go in my company.
Because she didn’t trust me even when she wanted me. Even when she sought my affection.
And I didn’t permit her to get drunk when she thought she was Winter, because she wasn’t herself and wouldn’t have been choosing to do it freely.
She did tonight, though.
My wife willingly chose to show me this part of her.
Lia releases my hand, but I keep it against her breastbone, basking in the feel of her erratic breathing.
She unbuttons my shirt, her touch unsteady but determined until she reveals my chest. Her palms flatten on my pectoral muscles and they flex beneath her tender touch. Her throat works with a swallow as she slides her hands down my abdomen, her dainty fingers pausing on my skin every so often until she finds my belt and undoes it.
Her movements are shaky and awkward at best, but I don’t try to help her, curious where she’s taking this.
My wife lowers herself to her knees in front of me as her trembling hands slide down my pants and boxer briefs.
A growl spills from my lips and a carnal sense of lust hardens my dick.
The only time Lia has ever sucked me was in that alley, and that was only because she initiated it. While I have constantly thought about making her take my dick at the back of her pretty throat, I’ve never acted on it, because I needed her to want it. I wished her to get on her knees for me, not because she had to, but because she wanted to.
Like now.
She frees my cock, her tiny hands wrapping around it and her tongue darts out to lick her lips.
My fingers dig into her dark hair as I groan deep in my throat. “Fuck, Lenochka.”
“You like this?” She stares up at me with her huge eyes, still stroking me up and down.
“What do you think?”
“I think you do.” She swirls her tongue around the crown, lapping at the droplets of precum. “Mmm. I love your taste.”
Holy fuck.
It’s the first time she’s talked dirty and it’s a strange turn-on.
“Why haven’t you fucked my mouth before, Adrian?”
“For the same reason that you’ve never gotten on your knees before, Lenochka.”
“And that is?”
“You didn’t want it.”
She shakes her head with a frown etched deep between her brows. “Of course I did. I just didn’t express it. There hasn’t been a day when I didn’t want you. Not even when I thought I hated you.”
I’m on the verge of coming then and there, even before she opens her mouth and takes me to the back of her throat.
Her words are the strongest aphrodisiac that’s ever hit me. The knowledge that she’s had me on her mind, probably as much as I’ve had her on mine, swells a dark corner of my heart with strange warmth.
Lia tries to suck me hard, even with her half-drooping eyelids and wobbly knees. My hand fists in her hair and when I thrust to the back of her throat, she loosens her grip, allowing me to use her mouth, to drive in and out of her wet heat.
My wife gags, tears welling in her eyes and drool rolling down her chin. I love this sight of her, the submission in her gaze and in her posture, even while she’s choking on my dick. She doesn’t fight me, doesn’t try to push me away as I confiscate her air.
This is why Lia has always been special to me. She takes the lash of my punishments and comes back for more. It’s like she trusts I’d never hurt her beyond repair and that I’ll