is so hurt, she crosses her tiny arms over her chest and whispers, “Fine. I’ll just run away, then.”
If only I could go with her.
She pushes past the heavy back door and does exactly that. She runs. As fast as she can. As far as she can until she trips and slides into the street, scraping her knees and elbows.
She looks around but doesn’t recognize anything. I feel confusion take hold. A slight sense of panic until a man comes over to help her up.
“What happened here?” he asks. He lifts her up and shuttles her out of the street before a car runs her over.
“I can’t find my dad.”
He smiles. “I’ll help you, honey. I think he’s this way.”
He holds out his hand, but Dutch hesitates. “You know my dad?”
“Sure do. He’s looking for you.”
“Oh.”
He’s lying. He’s lying! And she knows it. She can feel it. She has to feel it. But she places her hand in his anyway. Lets him lead her away, and I know the emotion leaching out of him. I’ve felt it hundreds of times. The hunger. The desire.
His name is Ethan and he committed the sin that branded him for hell years ago. He is old. Like forty or something, with hairy shoulders and rolls of fat hanging over the waistband of his pants.
I appear in front of them. He can’t see me, but Dutch can. She looks up. Starts to slow. But he tugs her along behind him.
“He’s right over here,” he says to encourage her.
Fortunately, he is actually headed back to toward the bar, but she doesn’t know that.
When she tries to wrench free, he says, “Everyone is looking for you, honey. You are in a lot of trouble. We have to hurry.”
I go back to the bar. Denise is still berating her husband. Robert bounds out of his chair, almost toppling it over, and stalks out.
He goes out the back door to see to Dutch, but she isn’t there. He looks around. Tears through the kitchen. The restrooms. Nothing.
“There it is,” Dutch says, pointing to the back of the bar.
The man hesitates. Scans the area. Probably knows it’s a cop hangout.
When he sees no one, he says, “Yeah, but your dad is in that apartment building over there. Knocking on doors. Looking for you.”
“Oh.”
She looks toward the bar longingly as they walk right by it and into the apartment building behind it. She lets him lead her inside. Shudders when the doors close behind them. Chews her fingers when the building swallows her whole.
Robert finally goes back to the table, grabs Mr. Davidson’s arm, and says, “Maybe you should help me find your daughter instead of bowing down to your sniveling wife.”
Denise gasps but Mr. Davidson snaps to attention.
“What do you mean, find her?” He looks around and rushes out the back.
Uncle Bob follows him and they check everywhere.
I try to think of a way to lead them to her. The man is taking her up the stairs, and the emotion radiating out of her is almost foreign to me. She isn’t scared of anything. Ever. Except me. When she sees me out of the corner of her eye, a small tingle of fear laces down her spine. But in all the years I’ve been dreaming of her, I’ve never felt fear off her for any other reason until now.
She knows there is something wrong. She knows she should’ve said no. Should’ve run from him. Dutch is like me. She can feel emotions, too. And she knows the emotions coming off this man are not right. They are not in her best interest.
His grip is growing firmer with every step. He’s getting excited. I can feel the blood pumping through his veins. His heart beats speed up. And Dutch feels it, too. She pulls her bottom lip through her teeth. She feels fear, true fear, possibly for the first time in her life. And she doesn’t like it.
She starts to struggle against his hold. He locks thick fingers around her wrist and almost drags her to his apartment. When she struggles more, he picks her up and carries her. She’s wearing a dress. Denise made her. She likes making Dutch wear things she doesn’t want to, like it’s a way to torture her or to control her. The man feels her panties when he picks her up, and almost comes in his pants. I feel a slight sting of excitement burst from him.
I want Dutch to scream, but she just pushes