actually see Ewan's butt), I rushed out of the dorm and into the cool November night. Blindly, I turned away from the main school building, instinc tively moving in the opposite direction from anywhere I'd run into people. I forced myself to keep moving and to breathe. What the hell was wrong with me? My chest felt tight and my stomach was so sick I had to keep swallowing hard so I wouldn't puke. The buzzing in my ears seemed to be better, but there was no relief from the anxiety that had settled over me like a shroud. Every thing inside me was screaming, Something's not right! Some thing's not right! Something's not right! As I walked I gradually noticed that the night, which had been clear, with a sky full of stars helping the almost full moon to illu minate its thick darkness, suddenly had clouded up. The soft, cool breeze had turned cold, causing dry leaves to shower down around me, mixing the smells of earth and wind with the darkness .. . somehow this soothed me and the tumult of disjointed thoughts and anxiety lifted enough for me to actually think. I headed to the stables. Lenobia had said that I could groom Persephone whenever I needed to think and be alone. I definitely needed that, and having a direction to go--an actual destination--was one small good thing in the midst of my internal chaos. The stables were just ahead, sprawling long and low, and my breath had started to come a little easier when I heard the sound. At first I didn't know what it was. It was too muffled--too odd. Then I thought that it might be Nala. It was like her to follow me and complain at me in her weird old lady cat voice until I stopped and picked her up. I looked around and called "Kitty-kitty" softly. The sound got more distinct, but it wasn't a cat, I could tell that. A movement close to the barn caught my eye, and I saw that a shape was slumped on the bench near the front doors. There was only one gaslight there, and it was right beside the doors. The bench was just outside the edge of the pool of flickering yellow light. It moved again, and I could tell that the shape must be a person ... or fledgling ... or vampyre. It was sitting, but kinda hunched over, almost folded in on itself. The sound started again. This close I could hear that it was a weird wailing--like whoever was sitting there was in pain. Naturally, I wanted to run in the opposite direction, but I couldn't. It wouldn't be right. Plus, I felt it--the knowledge within me that I could not leave. That whatever was happening on the bench was something I had to face. I took a deep breath and approached the bench. "Uh, are you okay?"
"No!" The word was an eerie, whispering explosion of sound. "Can--can I help you?" I asked, trying to peer into the shad ows and see who was sitting there. I thought I could see light-colored hair, and maybe hands covering a face .. . "The water! The water is so cold and deep. Can't get out .. . can't get out." She took her hands from her face then and looked up at me, but I already knew who it was. I'd recognized her voice. And I also recognized what was happening to her. I forced myself to ap proach her calmly. She stared up at me. Her face was covered with tears. "Come on, Aphrodite. You're having a vision. I need to get you to Neferet."
"No!" she gasped. "No! Don't take me to her. She won't listen to me. She--she doesn't believe me anymore." I remembered what Neferet had said earlier about Nyx with drawing her gifts from Aphrodite. Why should I even mess with her at all? Who knew what was going on with Aphrodite? She was probably making some pathetic play for attention, and I didn't have time for this crap. "Fine. Let's say I don't believe you either," I told her. "Stay here and have your vision or whatever. I have other things to worry about." I turned to head into the stable, and her hand snaked out, grabbing my wrist. "You have to stay!" she said through chattering teeth. Obvi ously, she was having difficulty talking. "You have to hear the vi sion!"
"No, I do not." I