a cut on his nose, a black eye. His head was shaved and bandaged. “Jesus,” I whispered.
“They had to drill into his head to relieve the bleeding,” Jules said.
He didn’t look like himself, but it was him, all right. Those were his outrageous eyebrows. That was his wedding ring on his left hand, his class ring from Boston College on his right. The scar on his arm from when he had a bad break in college.
“It’s a wait-and-see situation,” Jules said, and her voice was uncharacteristically soft.
I didn’t know where to touch my father; he looked so small in the hospital bed.
“Daddy?” I whispered, putting my hand on his chest, over his heart. “It’s Sadie. I’m here. I love you so much, Daddy.”
That was all I was allowed. A nurse told us he needed quiet, and Jules led me back to the waiting room.
“What happened?” I asked, and Oliver, the diplomat in the family, filled me in.
It was such a Dad move, deciding to go for a bike ride on a nice day, winter be damned. Apparently he had a stroke and fell, then lay there for an unknown amount of time before someone saw him and called 911. They missed the golden hour, that window after a stroke when intervention can make a huge difference. “A pity, really,” Oliver said. The vast understatement of that word made me want to smack him.
My tears kept falling. My mother stared into space. Juliet checked in with the babysitter and sat next to Mom. They murmured to each other. Oliver smiled every time I looked at him. I kept checking my phone to see if Alexander had turned on his—Boston wasn’t that far, and I’d texted, too. But he was one of those people who would forget his phone was off until hours later.
A few friends from St. Catherine’s had texted; I guess Carter had put the word out. Even Sister Mary sent me a message, saying she’d pray for my family.
An hour ticked past. A couple of times, I had to get up and go to the window so I wouldn’t sob in front of my family, in case Mom said something like, “There’s no point in crying, Sadie. Save that for when he dies.” Not that she would. But I kept imagining that kind of thing—Juliet sighing and rolling her eyes at me, or my annoyingly chipper brother-in-law saying something British, like, “Stiff upper lip, Sadie! No need to get all collywobbles!”
Where was Alexander? Where was the doctor? (He probably had a good excuse, like saving someone’s life, but I was still irked.)
It started to snow, first just a few drifting flakes, then a near whiteout. The TV on the wall showed meteorologists peeing themselves with glee, standing at intersections where cars slid by to report that, yes, it was snowing. If one of those sliding cars hit them, it would be natural selection.
My father’s condition had rendered me vicious, it seemed.
Finally, as I stared out the window at the “polar vortex” (because calling it snow was so yesterday), Alexander’s name flashed on my phone. I told him the grim news.
“Babe, I’m so sorry. I’ll be there as soon as I can,” he said. “You know me and driving with the phone off. But I’ll keep it on, and I’m getting right back in the car.”
“Is it snowing there?” I asked.
He hesitated. “Yeah. Pretty hard.”
“Here too. Why don’t you call in the morning? Stay in Boston tonight. The forecast is eight to twelve inches.”
“That’s what she said.”
My jaw clenched. “Not now, Alexander.”
“Sorry. Just trying to make you laugh.”
“I know.” I paused. “I miss you.”
“I miss you, too. I’m so sorry about this, babe. I know how much you love your dad.”
The tears started again, stinging the now-raw skin under my eyes. “Thanks, honey,” I said, my voice husky.
“Love you, Sadie.”
“Love you, too.”
I went back to rejoin the family. No one looked up.
“No word from the doctor?” I asked.
“Alas, no,” said Oliver.
Alas? I tried not to be annoyed, but Oliver . . . he was perfectly nice. If he lacked substance in my opinion, I guess it didn’t matter. He was a good father, a good husband, and a brilliant son-in-law, at least according to Mom.
I Googled “stroke with cerebral hemorrhage” on my phone, then decided it would only lead to terror. May as well hear from the doctor first. I sighed. Studied my family. I’d seen them at Christmas, just a few weeks ago, but that seemed like millennia now.
Jules