to leave!” she said, imploring me. “Ordered me.” She stopped only to catch her breath. “ ‘Go, Charlotte,’ she said, ‘for if I must see you die before me or with me, my life is nothing. I will not have you here, Charlotte. If I am burnt I cannot bear it that you should see it, or suffer the same.’ And so I did what she told me to do.” Her mouth gave that little twist again, that pout, and it seemed again she would cry. But she ground her teeth, and widened her eyes, considering all of it, and then fell into her anger again.
“I loved your mother,” I said to her.
“Aye, I know that you did,” she said. “They turned against her, her husband and my brothers.”
I noticed that she did not speak of this man as her father, but I said nothing. I did not know whether I should ever say anything on this account or not.
“What can I say to soothe your heart?” I asked her. “They are punished. They do not enjoy the life which they took from Deborah.”
“Ah, you put it well.” And here she smiled bitterly at me, and she bit her lip, and her little face looked so tender and so soft to me, so like something which could be hurt, that I leant over and kissed her and this she allowed, with her eyes downcast.
She seemed puzzled. And so was I, for I had found it so indescribably sweet to kiss her, to catch the scent of her skin and to be so near her breasts, that I was in a state of pure consternation actually. At once I said that I wished to talk of this spirit again, for it seemed my only salvation was the business at hand. “I must make known to you my thoughts on this spirit, on the dangers of this thing. Surely you know how I came to know your mother. Did she not tell you the whole tale?”
“You try my patience,” she said suddenly.
I looked at her and saw her anger again.
“How so?”
“You know things that I would not have you know.”
“What did your mother tell you?” I asked. “It was I who rescued her from Donnelaith.”
She considered my words, but her anger did not cool. “Answer me this,” she said. “Do you know how her mother came to summon her daimon, as you call him!”
“From the book the witch judge showed her, she took her idea. She learnt it all from the witch judge, for before that she was the cunning woman and the midwife, as are so many, and nothing more.”
“Oh, she might have been more, much more. We are all more than we seem. We only learn what we must. To think what I have become here, since I left my mother’s house. And listen to what I say, it was my mother’s house. It was her gold which furnished it and put the carpets on the stone floors, and the wood in the fireplaces.”
“The townsfolk talked of that,” I said. “That the Comte had nothing but his title before he met her.”
“Aye, and debts. But that is all past now. He is dead. And I know that you have told me all that my mother said. You have told me the truth. I only wonder that I want to tell you what you do not know, and cannot guess. And I think on what my mother told me of you, of how she could confess anything to you.”
“I’m glad she said this of me. I never betrayed her to anyone.”
“Except to your order. Your Talamasca.”
“Ah, but that was never betrayal.”
She turned away from me.
“My dearest Charlotte,” I said to her. “I loved your mother, as I told you. I begged her to beware of the spirit and the spirit’s power. I do not say I predicted what happened to her. I did not. But I was afraid for her. I was afraid of her ambition to use the spirit for her ends—”
“I don’t want to hear any more.” She was in a rage again.
“What would you have me do?” I asked.
She thought, but not apparently on my question, and then she said: “I will never suffer what my mother suffered, or her mother before her.”
“I pray not. I have come across the sea to … ”
“No, but your warnings and your presence have nothing to do with it. I will not suffer those things. There was something sad in my