back on the sidewalk. “Where to next?”
“I have to drop this off,” I said, hefting the bookstore bag. “Won’t take but a second.”
“Whatever you need, sir.”
“I’m just saying, it’s not a big deal. A quick errand and then we’re done.”
James frowned. “Is it unprofessional of me to say that you seem nervous?”
“Yes. Highly unprofessional. How dare you.” I ran my hands through my hair. “Have you ever been in love, James?”
“Yes, sir.”
“What’s it like?”
“The sweetest agony. A torture from which you never want to escape.”
“Sounds terrible.”
His eyebrows rose questioningly.
“God, no,” I said, waving my hands. “I’m not capable. I just want to know the warning signs. For…science.”
“The warning signs are part of the thrill, sir,” James said as he opened the car door for me. “It’s like skiing down a mountain. You’re scared shitless, dodging moguls, the wind whipping through your hair, and adrenaline coursing through your veins. Before you realize it, you’re at the bottom and you don’t remember the fear. Only the exhilaration.”
I gaped. “Good grief, James… You’re a romantic.”
“I’ve been told, sir.”
“A question: what happens if, while you’re racing down the slope, you hit an ice patch, go veering off course and slam into a tree?”
“In that case, you hope the ride was worth it.”
I directed James back to the Whitmore residence where he’d driven me months ago on Homecoming night. As I did then, I had him park a short distance away to wait for me. I walked toward River’s house under a heavy sky that threatened rain, my nerves lit up like a switchboard.
He might not even be home. Did you think of that? You’re going to leave the book with his dad, perchance? “Hi, Mr. Whitmore. Your son tongue-fucked me at school the other day and now I’m thoroughly ruined. Here’s a car book. Have a nice day.”
Suddenly, I was at the front door and knocking before I could talk myself out of it. River answered.
He had on jeans and a tight-fitting dark green sweater that was smooth over his broad chest and highlighted every muscle in his arms and shoulders. But it was his smile that automatically came over his face when he saw it was me, that was my undoing. I felt it in every damn molecule of my body.
River Whitmore is one big warning sign.
“Hey,” he said.
“Hey,” I parroted back.
“You want to come in?”
“Is that wise, given your predicament?”
“My dad and sister are out shopping. Mom’s asleep.”
“Just for a minute. I can’t stay. I have…a lot of stuff to do and…”
Jesus, I was rambling. I never rambled.
River grinned like a bastard and opened the door to let me in, then shut it behind me. We stood in the wide entry, him on one side, me on the other. He crossed his arms and leaned against the wall, unnerving me with his relentless good looks. The long sleeves of his sweater were pushed up, and a large silver watch was strapped around his wrist, making his forearms obscenely sexy.
“I didn’t know if I was going to see you again,” River said, keeping his voice low. “You bailed fast the other day.”
The other day, he said. Casual and plain, as if it hadn’t upheaved my life in every possible way. And maybe his too. His first kiss with a guy.
And it was with me.
My composure returned on a tide of arrogant pride. “I suddenly remembered an urgent appointment and had to run out.” I held out the bag. “This is for you.”
He pushed off the wall, took it, then retreated, both of us staying in our corners while a sucking pull, like a tide, wanted to crash us together again.
River took the book out and let the bag fall. “Holy shit, this is awesome,” he murmured, flipping through the pages. He raised his eyes to mine. “Thank you.”
I tucked my hands into my coat pockets to give them something to do that wasn’t grabbing him. “It’s nothing.”
“It’s not nothing,” he said and tucked it under his arm. “Hold on a sec.”
He left the hall entry and took the stairs up two at a time. I sagged against the wall and scrubbed my hands over my face.
“Leave,” I whispered. “Leave now. Save yourself…”
River came back holding a rectangular box with Montegrappa embossed in gold.
“I didn’t have time to wrap it,” he said, handing it to me and resuming his lean against the opposite wall.
I wondered if he’d had the same aversion about unwrapping gifts while someone watched. If so, it’d be one of the