Reflected in You(269)

He started the engine and merged into traffic, expertly and confidently navigating the powerful car through the craziness of New York city streets.

"Watching you drive makes me want you," I told him, noting how his easy grip on the wheel tightened.

"Christ."

He glanced at me.

"You have a transportation fetish."

"I have a Gideon fetish."

My voice lowered.

"It's been weeks."

"And I hate every second of it.

This is torment for me, Eva.

I can't focus.

I can't sleep.

I lose my temper at the slightest irritants.

I'm in hell without you."

I never wanted him to suffer, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't make my own misery better knowing he was missing me as much as I was missing him.I twisted in my seat to face him.

"Why are you doing this to us?" "I had an opportunity and I took it."

His jaw firmed.

"This separation is the price.

It won't last forever.

I need you to be patient."

I shook my head.

"No, Gideon.

I can't.

Not anymore."

"You're not leaving me.

I won't let you."

"I've already left.

Don't you see that? I'm living my life and you're not in it."

"I'm in it every way I can be right now."

"By having Angus following me around? Come on.