my tongue around the head before taking only that in my mouth.
And I sucked as hard as I could on it while licking his slit, still pumping him faster and faster.
“Coming!” he warned in next to no time.
I was so shocked I simply kept going instead of worrying what happened next. It made sense he would finish fast in my dream so I didn’t have a difficult first time.
He finished in my mouth and I hurried to swallow, not particularly fond of the taste but not thinking it gross. I doubted that would be true in real life.
Then again, women did give oral sex often so… Maybe? Maybe it didn’t matter much if you cared for the guy?
He moaned and then moved his hand to my cheek as he curled up a bit. “I need a moment, love. It’s supersensitive like you are after you orgasm.”
I slowly pulled off of him with a pop and glanced down before smirking at him. “Oh, that could be a fun game.” I chuckled and stroked him when he gave me a confused look. “You always keep playing with me when I say I need a break.”
In a flash, I was on my back. “Yes, yes, I do because I love watching you climax. You know that. Nothing is sexier than my sweet fairy finding pleasure and gasping my name, crying it out if I’m lucky.” He kissed my deeply, not caring what I’d just swallowed. “That was everything, love. Gods that was the best I’ve ever had. By far. Did you hate it?”
“No, not at all,” I mumbled, staring up at him and thinking this was the closure I’d needed. Hopefully. “Make love to me?”
His eyes flashed shock but then he smiled. “Always. I’ll always make love to you because I love you with all of me, Tamsin Vale.”
I just wished I believe the real Julian the way I believed the dream one in that moment. We made love twice and when it was over, I tried to convince myself that I could now close the chapter on him and move on.
I needed to move on and keep my sanity.
Because all I wanted was to forgive him and have him with me again.
And that was insanity after what he’d done to me.
I woke that morning feeling sated, as if sex dreams could give me relief in real life.
Well, that would be nice. I was never that lucky though.
Before I changed my mind and caved, I grabbed my phone and texted White, asking her how sleep draughts worked and how hard would it be to get some that didn’t let me dream. It killed me to do it, but I needed to. I had millions of fairies relying on me to stay focused and keep my head.
And that meant it was time to move on.
Maybe after I run several miles and get a nice breakfast.
Sure, that was how life worked.
I rolled out of bed, sighing that I was still alone in it, and changed. I was mostly okay with Lucca and Darby again, but… Hesitant. That seemed to be most of our relationship but, well, I couldn’t help how I felt when they hurt me.
Maybe they could stop doing it and we wouldn’t have any problems.
Iolas was already in the gym and I simply gave him a nod before hopping on a treadmill. Things were strained between us after he told me what Katrina had insisted he needed to.
Namely, he’d been madly in love with my mother.
Yeah, that wasn’t weird for me.
At. All.
So he was grieving the loss of my mother. They had been childhood friends and apparently, my mother had felt some puppy love feelings for him that she’d grown out of, but Iolas had felt more, even if she wasn’t his mate.
Which made him the wrong person to ask about my father like ever. I left the pin in all of that since I had enough to deal with.
But how had Katrina known that?
Iolas had been a decent enough guy to admit he was in love with someone else when they’d had their few flings. Katrina supposedly hadn’t minded as he’d healed some of her hurt after she’d been heartbroken, and she had comforted him as well from all his heartache.
That was about as much as I could hear about it all. Talking much about his love for my mother who I didn’t know—and didn’t respect since she sold me—and had fucked up by giving me the life she did, wasn’t something