apart? What do the King and Queen actually want to do? If Colyn were sent away, where would he go next and what would he do?
Until today, the answers had all been clear enough. The King did not intend to spend one peso on anything but the war against the Moors, while the Queen very much wanted to support Colyn's expedition. That meant that any decision at all would be divisive. In the delicate balance between King and Queen, between Aragon and Castile, any decision on Colyn's expedition would cause one of them to think that power had drifted dangerously in the other direction, and suspicion and envy would increase.
Therefore, regardless of all the arguments, Talavera was determined that no verdict would be reached until the situation changed. It was easy enough at first, but as the years passed and it became clear that Colyn had nothing new to offer, it became harder and harder to keep the issue alive. Fortunately, Colyn was the only other person involved in the process who seemed to understand it. Or if he didn't understand it, at least he cooperated with Talavera to this degree: He kept hinting that he knew more than he was telling. Veiled references to information he learned while in Lisbon or Madeira, mentions of proofs that had not yet been brought forward, this was what allowed Talavera to keep the examination open.
When Maldonado (and Deza, for opposite reasons) wanted him to force Colyn to lay these great secrets on the table, to settle things once and for all, Talavera always agreed that it would be a great help if Colyn would do so, but one must understand that anything Colyn learned in Portugal must have been learned under sacred oath. If it was just a matter of fear of Portuguese reprisals, then no doubt Colyn would tell, for he was a brave man and not afraid of anything King John might do. But if it was a matter of honor, then how could they insist that he break his oath and tell? That would be the same as asking Colyn to damn himself to hell for all eternity, just to satisfy their curiosity. Therefore they must listen carefully to all that Colyn said, hoping that, clever scholars that they were, they could determine just what it was he could not tell them openly.
And, by the grace of God, Colyn himself played along. Surely the others had all taken him aside, at one time or another, trying to pry from him the secrets that he would not tell. And in all these long years, Colyn had never given a hint of what his secret information was. Just as important, he had also never given a hint that there was no secret information.
For a long time Talavera had not studied the arguments -- he had grasped those at the start and nothing important had been added in years. No, what Talavera studied was Colyn himself. At first he had assumed that Colyn was just another courtier on the make, but that impression was quickly dispelled. Colyn was absolutely, fanatically determined to sail west, and could not be distracted by any other sort of preferment. Gradually, though, Talavera had come to see that this voyage west was not an end in itself. Colyn had dreams. Not of personal wealth or fame, but rather dreams of power. Colyn wanted to accomplish something, and this westward voyage was the foundation of it. And what was it that Colyn wanted to do? Talavera had puzzled about this for months, for years.
Today, at last, the answer had come. Departing from his usual scholarly bludgeoning, Maldonado had remarked, rather testily, that it was selfish of Colyn to try to distract the monarchs from their war with the Moors, and Colyn had suddenly erupted in anger. "A war with the Moors? For what, to drive them from Granada, from a small corner of this dry peninsula? With the wealth of the East we could drive the Turk from Constantinople, and from there it is only a short step to Armageddon and the liberation of the Holy Land! And you tell me that I must not do this, because it might interfere with the war against Granada? You might as well tell a matador that he cannot kill the bull because it might interfere with the effort to stomp on a mouse!"
At once Colyn had regretted his remarks, and was quick to reassure everyone that he had nothing but