seek refuge.
“Was he gone when you came out?” asked Armand.
“Who?”
“Who do you think?” asked Myrna.
“You mean the toreador?”
“Yes,” said Myrna, not bothering to correct her, since she suspected Ruth knew perfectly well that a bullfighter hadn’t descended on the village. Though, God knew, they could use help fighting all the bull.
“He was gone,” said Ruth. “But Michael was hanging around. Making a pest of himself.”
“The archangel?” asked Armand.
“Who else? Man, that angel can talk. God this, God that. So I went to the chapel to get away.”
“From God?” asked Myrna, looking at the rumpled woman. “What did you do there?”
“I prayed.”
“Preyed?” Myrna mouthed at Armand, making a talon gesture with her hands.
Armand flattened his lips to stop from smiling.
“What for?” he asked the old poet.
“Well, I start off praying that anyone who’s pissed me off meets a horrible end. Then I pray for world peace. And then I pray for Lucifer.”
“Did you say Lucifer?” asked Myrna.
“Why so surprised?” asked Ruth, looking from one to the other. “Who needs it more?”
“I can think of a few who deserve it more,” said Myrna.
“And who are you to judge?” asked Ruth, not completely unkindly. Though Myrna was now a little afraid she’d be added to that prayer list. “The greatest sinner. The most lost soul. The angel who not only fell to earth, he fell so hard he broke through.”
“You pray for Satan?” Myrna asked again, still unable to get past that, and beseeching Armand for help. But he only shrugged as though to say, “She’s all yours.”
“Shithead,” muttered Myrna.
Then something occurred to her. “For him? Or to him?”
“For him. For him. For him. Jeez, and they call me demented. He was Michael’s best friend. Until he got into trouble.”
“And by trouble, you mean the war in heaven where Lucifer tried to overthrow God?” asked Myrna.
“Oh, you know the story?”
“Yes, there was a movie of the week.”
“Well, none of us is perfect,” said Ruth. “We all make mistakes.”
“That would seem bigger than most,” said Myrna. “Especially since Lucifer hardly seems repentant.”
“And is that a reason not to forgive?” asked Ruth. She seemed genuinely perplexed by the question. Losing herself for a moment. “Michael says Lucifer was the most beautiful, the brightest of them all. They called him the Son of the Morning. He was luminous.”
Ruth looked around, at the cottages, the gardens, the forest. The fragrant mist, and the struggling sun.
“Stupid, stupid angel,” she muttered, then turned to them. “It’s generally thought that a conscience is a good thing, but let me ask you this. How many terrible things are done in the name of conscience? It’s a great excuse for appalling acts.”
“Did your friend Lucifer tell you that?” asked Myrna.
“No, the Archangel Michael told me that, just before he asked me to pray for the greatest sinner of all.”
“Who had no conscience,” Myrna pointed out.
“Or a warped one. A conscience is not necessarily a good thing. How many gays are beaten, how many abortion clinics bombed, how many blacks lynched, how many Jews murdered, by people just following their conscience?”
“And you think that’s what we had here?” asked Armand. “A conscience gone astray?”
“How should I know? I’m a crazy old woman who prays for Satan and has a duck. It would be nuts to listen to me, wouldn’t it? Come on, Rosa, time for breakfast.”
The two limped and waddled over to the Gamache home.
“A conscience guides us,” Myrna called after her. “To do the right thing. To be brave. To be selfless and courageous. To stand up to tyrants whatever the cost.”
Ruth stopped and turned back to look at them.
“You might almost say it’s luminous,” she said, pausing on the steps up to the porch. Holding their eyes. “Sometimes all is not well.”
CHAPTER 12
With the Conscience gone, Chief Superintendent Gamache felt it safe to return to Montréal and work. Driving through the November mist that persisted, he arrived at Sûreté headquarters and went about his day, getting caught up on the paperwork and meetings that had been put on hold while the cobrador had occupied Three Pines.
He had lunch with the new head of Serious Crimes at a bistro in Old Montréal. Over the soup of the day and grilled sandwiches, they discussed organized crime, cartels, drugs, money laundering, terrorism threats, biker gangs.
All on the rise.
Gamache pushed his sandwich aside and ordered an espresso, while Superintendent Toussaint finished her grilled cubain.
“We need more resources, patron,” she said.
“Non. We need to use what we have better.”
“We’re doing the best we can,” said Toussaint,