and brought you home.”
“Oh…” That wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought. “Then why are you sleeping with me?”
“Well…there’s more to the story.”
That didn’t sound good.
“You wanted to sleep together—badly. I said no.”
My cheeks flushed red instantly. Everything came back to me, and the humiliation washed over me like cold water. I remembered everything, the way I tried to seduce him and even…kissing him through his boxers. “Oh my god.” I covered my face.
“There’s nothing to be embarrassed about. It’s really not a big deal.”
I quickly jumped out of bed but slipped on my dress and fell on the hardwood floor.
God, just kill me.
“You alright?”
I grabbed my chest and stood up “I’m fine. I just…have to be somewhere.”
He released an irritated sigh. “Alessandra—”
“You should go.” I stormed into the bathroom and shut the door.
Ash sighed then left the bed. His feet were heard on the hardwood floor. “I’ll leave. But I want to talk about this later.”
I sat on the floor with my knees to my chest.
He approached the door and leaned against it. “There’s nothing to be ashamed of. I had a great time. I prefer you drunk.”
“Just go.”
He sighed. “Okay. I’ll see you later.” His feet walked away and then I heard the sound of my front door opening and closing.
Once he was gone, I covered my face with my dress. “Ugh!”
***
I didn’t speak to Ash all week and he didn’t call me. Maybe if I avoided him long enough, everything would just go away. Maybe he would forget everything. And maybe I would stop thinking about it.
I made such an idiot out of myself and now I was totally mortified. I acted like such a slut and totally threw myself at him. I even kissed his erection through his boxers… I was such a skank. And the fact I liked it so much made it even worse.
He must have thought I was pathetic, begging him to sleep with me like that.
All my class went out the window.
I was sitting at home when my phone lit up with a text message.
Hey, sweetheart. I know you’re trying to forget everything that happened but I need you on Saturday for dinner with my parents.
Dammit. Now I had to face the music. Sure.
So, can I pick you up at six?
Yeah. I didn’t want to face him but there was no way around it. I had to escort him tonight. It would sabotage his plan if I didn’t. He couldn’t just replace me with a new girl because that would ruin everything.
I look forward to seeing you.
I threw my phone down and tried not to scream.
***
Ash knocked right on time.
I stared at the door and considered not answering it. How could I face him and not blush crimson red? How could I hold my head high when I was just on my knees last week?
I smoothed out my dress before I opened the door. I quickly turned my back then grabbed my clutch from the kitchen table. Not facing him right away might make this easier.
Ash shut the door behind him. “Hey. Long time no see.”
“Yeah…” I fidgeted with my clutch just so I had something to do.
Ash came behind me and pressed his chest to my back. His arms circled my waist. “Would you stop being a drama queen about this?”
I didn’t turn around.
“I had a lot of fun that night. Hearing you tell me what you want from me was a nice treat.”
“Not helping…”
“Why are you ashamed of that?” He gripped my waist and forced me to turn around and face him. “You think I didn’t want you? You know how much I wish you were sober? It wasn’t easy for me to lie there and do nothing when my dick was rock-hard.”
“Let’s just not talk about this anymore…” I avoided his look.
“No.” He pulled me tight against his chest. “You have nothing to be embarrassed about. I’m the least judgmental person in the world. You really believe I think less of you?”
“I’m just embarrassed that I was so aggressive.”
“Why?” he asked. “It was hot.”
“Yeah?”
“Really hot.” He pressed his forehead to mine. “Don’t be awkward around me. I don’t like it. I miss you.”
“You miss me?”
“Yeah. You’re the only girl friend I’ve ever had. I don’t want to lose you.”
Somehow, he made me melt and forget about my humiliation.
Ash saw the life return to my eyes. “There she is. Now, are we okay?”
I nodded.
“Good. Because that was a stupid thing to be embarrassed about.” He grabbed my clutch from the