she did that. Bitch is right.” I blushed from using the cuss word.
More laughter surrounded me.
“Need a drink yet?” Kylo asked with a smirk.
“Ha! No, not yet.” Since I wanted to be coherent tomorrow for more studying. “Though, if a full-on fight breaks out, I’ll rethink it.”
“Got it.” He grinned. He said something else, but my attention snagged on something over near the bar. Since I was standing, I could see more of the room. Not much because I was short, but what I saw had my stomach churning.
Wreck stood at the bar, smiling down at a woman. A woman who had her hand resting on Wreck’s arm. She flicked her hair over her shoulder and said something that had him laughing. I hadn’t seen him laughing, and it was an amazing sight to see. However, it wasn’t me who caused it.
It was a woman.
A woman.
He liked women.
Through everything, it was something I had forgotten.
“Hey, you all right?” Kylo asked.
“Huh? Oh, ah, yeah, yes. I’m good.”
The woman ran her hand up Wreck’s arm and cupped his cheek. He grinned down at her.
“Lucas?”
I blinked hard and ignored the twinge in my chest. “Sorry?” I asked Kylo as I looked back at him.
He shifted closer. “It was Wreck that West mentioned.”
I snorted, fake laughed, and shook my head. “What? No, that’s crazy.”
“Sure it is. That’s why you look sick with Sara being all over him.”
I waved a hand in front of me. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. Is Wreck here?”
“You know he’s not gay or bi, right?”
“Kylo, what are you talking about?”
“Don’t lie to me. I thought we were friends. Why aren’t you tellin’ me the truth?”
I ground my teeth together and scrubbed a hand over my face. Leaning in, I whispered, “You can’t say anything. Especially not to Wreck, but yes, I find him attractive.”
Kylo groaned. “Lucas, that attraction will get you nowhere. He ain’t like us.”
I knew he wasn’t, but why did he kiss me? I couldn’t exactly say that, so I nodded. “I know. I’ll get over it.” I would because what I just saw would be burned in my mind as a reminder of why my heart would be crushed in the end. He loved women, not men. “I think I’ll head home. Zion gave me the keys to the car since his ride was here. I’ll talk to you soon, okay?”
Kylo patted my arm like he felt sorry for me. “Yeah, man. Drive safe.”
I quickly said goodbye to those around us and made my way toward the door.
I will not look over there. I will not look over there. Dang it. I looked over there and found Wreck’s eyes following me just as the woman, Sara, lifted up to press her lips against his.
Chapter Eleven
Wreck
Jesus motherfucking hell. Why did this have to happen to me? I’d fucked up once more and wanted to bash myself in the face or have my brothers do it.
Not only did I lose my shit when Lucas went out on a goddamn date, and I was ready to tell him he was mine, that he couldn’t see anyone else, but now he’d just seen Sara kiss me. His hurt was obvious in his eyes, even from all the way over the other side of the room. He probably thought I was just fucking with him and enjoyed sending him mixed signals. I wasn’t, and I didn’t.
Though, it kind of pleased me to see he was jealous. Then he’d know how I’d felt when he went out with that pissant. Only Lucas didn’t know I’d claimed him. He didn’t know I wanted him. He didn’t know he was mine, but only because I hadn’t said shit. I wanted to, yet there I was standing still and not chasing him because I was weak. I wanted to protect him. At least, that was what I thought I was doing, but really all I was doing was protecting myself from the judgment.
I had to man the fuck up, or he’d slip through my fingers.
“Christ,” I clipped.
“What’s wrong?” Sara asked. She was the daughter of a club brother. If that wasn’t reason enough to not touch her, there was also the fact she didn’t do shit for me.
“Nothin’, I gotta go.” Where I didn’t know. Everything in me wanted to rush after Lucas. Could I? Shit, I didn’t fucking know. Though, what I did know, was that I didn’t want Lucas with anyone.
No one was to touch him, or I’d lose my shit.
“Where are