me here since I don’t actually own a blade.”
“You don’t have a weapon?” I ask, shocked. But of course she doesn’t. Zara was stripped of her weapons when she arrived, and she won’t be offered another one until the next battle.
If the same men who attacked me had chosen Zara’s tent instead, she would have been utterly defenseless.
The thought sickens me.
“Wait right here.” I get up and go into War’s tent, which is still standing. The horseman isn’t inside at the moment, which is probably for the best.
Easier to ask for forgiveness than permission.
I grab one of the sheathed daggers War has scattered about, then leave his tent, returning to Zara. Several nearby phobos riders track my every movement.
“What’s that?” my friend asks when I extend the weapon to her.
“Put it on.”
“It’s not going to fit,” she says, unwinding the leather belt that’s wrapped around the sheath; it was clearly made to fit a much larger waist. She loops the belt around her, doing the best she can to make it fit.
Zara stares down at it. “Is War going to kill me for this?” she asks, glancing warily at the phobos riders who watch the two of us. They’re undoubtedly going to report that I’ve lifted a dagger from the horseman’s collection.
“I’ll talk to him. It’ll be fine.”
She raises her eyebrows. “You’re going to talk to him?” She says skeptically. “And that’ll work?”
“It has so far.”
She huffs out a laugh. “What sort of talking will you two be doing? The horizontal kind?”
I make a face even as I laugh a little. “No. The normal kind of talking.”
She shakes her head. “Either you’re the world’s most convincing woman, Miriam, or these favors are going to eventually cost you.”
You are my wife, you will surrender to me, and you will be mine in every sense of the word before I’ve destroyed the last of this world.
Zara’s right. Nothing these days comes without a price, favors especially. And War has done me many favors.
At some point, he’s going to make me pay.
Chapter 22
I’ve broken Rule Three.
Avoid notice.
To be fair, War seems to have always taken notice of me. It’s now the rest of camp who is very, very aware of who I am.
I feel their stares as I mount Lady Godiva, a new horse that is way less interested in kicking me than Thunder was. The camp’s collective gaze makes my skin itch. It’s impossible to blend in, and I hate it.
Just like the horseman promised, today the army packed up. Ashdod has been eradicated, as has all the satellite communities that surround it. There’s nothing left for War to kill, so it’s time for us to go.
Like before, War and I ride at the head of the horde, putting enough distance between us that I can forget for a time that there’s a murderous army following in our wake.
The horseman drives us south along Highway 4. The land is too flat for me to see the ocean from here, but I swear I can smell it. It’s mere kilometers from the road. And by the conversations I overheard back at camp, we’ll be sticking close to the coastline over the next couple of days.
I try to keep my thoughts preoccupied on the journey itself, but inevitably they swing back to my travel companion, just as they have ever since we left camp.
For absolutely no logical reason whatsoever, today I’m unable to ignore him. Or maybe there is a reason; maybe War’s barbaric justice earlier today broke something in me.
Whatever the reason, now I can’t help but notice the sharp cut of his jaw; his dark, almost black hair; and those curving lips. I take in his red leather armor and his powerful thighs.
I’m having thigh fantasies. About my enemy.
I’m a fucking moron.
Naturally, of course, that doesn’t stop me from continuing to glance at War, and the longer I look, the more certain I am that I want to run my fingers over his strange, glowing markings and smear the kohl that lines his eyes. I want to taste those lips again.
I want it all, and I’m not supposed to, which makes me want it all the more.
“Why haven’t you been with any other women since we met?” The question just slips out, but as soon as it does, I want to die.
People who are into each other ask these sorts of questions. I’m flagrantly making him believe that this matters to me. And it doesn’t, it really doesn’t. I’m just curious. I