was suffering yet again from an old scar that doesn’t want to fade away. I honestly don’t know why it bothers me, but it does.”
“Well, aren’t we two wounded animals?” Claire said, raising her glass to him. “You actually make me feel better about myself.”
Whitaker raised his own stem. “I’m glad my decline can give someone else hope, almost like a seesaw. I go down, you go up. Maybe this whole thing I’m going through isn’t for naught.”
She enjoyed her wine and then, “A seesaw. I like that.”
Whitaker smiled at her appreciation of his comment. “I’ll try to keep my feet on the ground for you. Keep you up in the air.”
It took a moment for Claire to get his meaning. “No, what goes down must go back up, right?”
Whitaker slowly lifted his hands, palms up, and said with a calm delivery, “Then our seesaw shall defy odds and rise in balance.”
Claire had to give it to him. He had an interesting mind. She put a bow on the topic by asking, “All this struggling because you can’t figure out anything new to write?”
“That’s pretty much it.”
“But now you have a story,” she said.
“That’s right. Now I have a story.” He took a long, slow breath and pinched his mustache. “And I’m scared to death . . .”
After a pregnant pause, Whitaker said, “You should pick up your camera again. It would be good for you. Do you have any work I can see? Judging by your amazing sense of style, I bet you’re more of an artist than you let on.”
She couldn’t help but get excited while thinking about taking photos again. “I still have a couple pieces here and there. Sold most of them at the café.”
Whitaker topped off both of their glasses. “I don’t know if you noticed, but I have a few open spots on my walls. Will you take a picture for me? I’ll buy it with the money I’m getting for this book I’m writing.”
She cocked an eyebrow, a smile playing on her lips. “Yeah, I’ll do that.”
“Can I ask one more serious question before we call it a night? And you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to.”
Claire felt more ready for his questions now, like he’d earned her trust. “Shoot.”
Whitaker asked his question as if he were touching a doorknob that might be hot. “How did David die?”
Claire nodded approval of the question. She’d spent enough time reliving that day that it wasn’t always a torture to explore. “A drunk driver. He was coming off 375 into downtown St. Pete. About four in the afternoon. A man driving a Honda Accord with a missing back bumper changed lanes without seeing David. Ran him off the road into a telephone pole.”
“Oh God, that’s awful. I hope the guy’s in prison.”
“For about five more years. God, if you only knew how much time I’ve spent hating that man. It’s probably a good thing he’s behind bars.”
Whitaker nodded understanding. “How did you find out?”
“David was supposed to bring someone by for dinner. Three years later, and I still don’t know who it was. I assume he was on his way to pick up the person . . . I don’t know. They never showed up. But I’d prepared all the fixings for fajitas and was waiting for them to walk in the door to fire the shrimp. They were supposed to be there at five, and I kept dialing him over and over while I waited at the dining room table.”
Claire could still remember that moment so vividly, her fingers jabbing the buttons on the phone, her eyes on the empty chairs. “Something didn’t feel right. I must have called him thirty times. Then there was a knock on the door. When I saw the chaplain’s white collar and the police officer standing behind him, no words were needed.”
Whitaker reached across the table and put his hand on hers. “I can’t imagine.” After a pause, he asked, “You never figured out who he was bringing to dinner?”
Claire shook her head. “No idea. I guess it doesn’t really matter, but it’s certainly always niggled at me.”
“Yeah, it would anyone.”
“And they found a Yankees hat with the tag still on it, which, if you knew David, was even weirder. He hated the Yankees—despised them. So why would he have a brand-new hat in his car? I guess it was for a client, but even so, I can’t see him supporting the Yankees in