shoes and whispered, “I would offer you everything I possess in both worlds if you were here willingly.”
When he stood, I sighed and slid my hand into his as we prepared to dance. “I am willing, Eli, more so than is good for either of us.”
Maybe it was the amount of Eli’s blood that still rolling through my veins, or maybe it was the holiday. Or perhaps, despite every ounce of willpower, the act of dating this man had been wearing down my defenses. I still was not going to doom him by marrying him, but more and more I was wishing I could.
We danced, feet bare on the earth, and when the first song ended, the field filled with fae couples. Fireflies and stars lit the night, and candles and bonfires burned. There was peace here, among the people of the wood and air. There was acceptance here, more than I allowed myself.
And when the king greeted the dawn’s light with a deep bow to me, I barely flinched.
“I present to you Geneviève of Crowe. Betrothed of my nephew. Born of magic. Giver of life and death. Future queen of Elphame.”
The faeries bowed, curtsied, or knelt. Swords and gowns were brought before me. I winced at the whole thing, but on the outside, I smiled and replied, “It is an honor to be made welcome by the people of earth and air.”
It was not an acceptance, but it was more than I thought I’d be able to muster. Eli kissed me soundly, and for a flicker of a moment, I let myself imagine a future here with him. Nature unbound. Acceptance. Love. There was much to treasure.
But I was not made for ruling. I was a warrior first, a creature that summoned the dead, and a woman utterly unsuited to motherhood. No amount of wishing would change that. My womb would not create life, not even for Eli.
The following afternoon, I was sleeping outside on a mossy hill with Eli beside me. Well, half under me. I was held against his side, my head resting on his chest, and we were both pillowed by thick moss.
He may not have napped; I wasn’t sure. What I did know was that we needed to address matters.
“We have a bargain, and I do not seek to break that,” I said, treading carefully. “I fear that it was entirely to my benefit, and for that I am grateful, but nonetheless . . . I need to ask you to let me speak of the future in general.”
He sighed. “I know.”
“I won’t speak of our future,” I hedged. I’d been thinking of ways around the rules because well, of course I had. I was not as clever as the fae, but I had spent a lot of time researching faery bargains.
Eli smiled, although it looked sad when he did.
“Courtship . . . dating . . .” I started, awkwardly fumbling forward despite knowing that danger was ahead. “I need to understand this, Eli. It’s not fair to expect me to know things when this is not my culture.”
“Do you think of the fae as fair, Geneviève?” His hand trailed over my back, fingertips tracing my spine.
“Eli . . .”
He sighed. “At the end of the courtship, one must accept the betrothal with an exchange of vows, or one must forsake the betrothed.”
My heart thudded at that.
“That is traditional.” Eli paused, and I knew he was trying to impart some wisdom to me. “There are no other options, traditionally. Matrimony or division. A date was set, and without an extenuating event, there are only no further options.”
I weighed the things he admitted, pondering options. “So, that means that on Twelfth Night I have to commit or quit.”
He looked at me. “We may not discuss our future, Geneviève. There are laws. The terms of a bargain overrule every other tradition for my people.”
“If I quit?”
“Then I will never speak to you again,” he said, voice tight. “Not as friends or partners. Nothing.”
“But I’m not ready to marry anyone,” I exclaimed. I sat up, glaring down at him. “And I can’t lose you. I . . . have feelings for you.”
Eli took my hand. “I am aware of all of this.”
“But I can ask for anything?”
“That is our deal.” Eli stared at me, and I let myself read the images he was trying to will to me.
“I would wait,” he said. “I am in no rush, Geneviève. I have no desire for a wife unless you are