That got my attention. “You should have known that was going to happen.” I should have known too but hearing him say it makes it real.
“I did.”
“What are you going to do?”
Landon sits up and turns toward me. “Dad is paying so I can keep going to school and pray I can get back on the team.”
My eyebrows go up in surprise. Landon’s parents were always a little hard on him but they did it to push him, to make him a better person. “He is? Is he pissed off?”
Landon sighs loudly. “Yeah, he was but he said he wasn’t going to let my talent go to waste. He was going to appeal it and see what happens.”
***
Later that night I run into Madison. We walk to the nearby coffee shop and grab a cup of coffee. Things are still a little strained between us but it’s getting better. I haven’t completely let her in and in this moment I need my sister, so I try. I just pray she doesn’t throw it back in my face.
“So,” I run my fingertip around the lid of my cup. “I think I might be pregnant.”
Shock registers across her face and then it’s gone. It is a shock. No one would suspect it would be me who would get pregnant. I’m the one who always thinks things through.
“Did you take a test?”
I shake my head. “No, not yet but I will in a few days. I want to give it just a little more time because it started but it was really light and then stopped.” I take a sip of my coffee. “Maybe I’m just stressed out and it’s messing with me.” I wish it were true but I’m not so sure.
Madison watches me for a few moments. “Well, if you want I’ll go with you.”
I smile letting her know that her offer means a lot to me. “No, I just want to wait just a little bit longer.” I should have taken a test weeks ago but I’m not ready to face reality just yet. I need to ignore it as long as possible. I’m selfish because I know if I am I need to be seeing a doctor but I just can’t yet.
She nods. “I’ll be here, Macy, when you’re ready.”
Madison and I finish our coffee and we talk about what we’re going to be doing for Christmas. I’m leaving in the morning to go home. It’s not something I want to do right now, not with my sister, Landon, and Cash staying behind but I promised Alexa I would come home early to spend some time with her. The three of them will be home in the next few days.
Chapter Eleven
December 27, 2013
Landon
My drug and alcohol classes are set with a little help from my dad. He made a few calls and set everything up for me. It was one last thing on my plate that I didn’t have to worry about. I’ll start them about the same time classes start back up. The season will be over so life will be a little less crazy. He’s also started my appeal. I’m not sure if it’ll do any good but it’s worth a shot.
I feel like shit that I’ve let so many people in my life down, myself included. If this appeal goes through it will be the best thing for me. It will me my little sliver of hope again at making it in life and not being a fuck up.
The morning Macy left campus for winter break she stopped at my door after I sent her a text asking her to.
Macy knocked before she pushed my bedroom door open. She stepped in and shut it behind her. When she looked over at me her eyes go directly to the whiskey and weed that’s sitting next to me on the bed.
“It’s not what it looks like.” I defended myself.
She nodded and came to stand in front of me. I pulled her down onto my lap. “I need you for this part.”
She wrapped her arms around me. “Whatever you need.”
I looked toward the bathroom and nodded. I didn’t have to say that I wanted to dump it all because she stood up and grabbed the stuff and walked into my bathroom.
She put everything in the sink and leaned on the door near the toilet. “You have to do it, Landon.”