eyes again. “I was going to ask you to a Halloween party tonight.” He’s nervous and it’s kind of cute. “But maybe we can just hang out and do something low key if you aren’t feeling all that well.”
I sigh. “I wish I could, Will.” I tap my pen on my leg. “Believe me, I want something normal in my life but I’m just not capable of normal right now.” My eyes tear up from the memories of my past, the good ones and even some of the bad. “I’m so in love with Landon and all his fucked up shit that I can’t see straight.” I look Will in his eyes and give him a small smile while my eyes water. “Run away while you can, run far, far away.”
Will looks like I’ve slapped him across the face for a brief minute before his expression changes to understanding. “We’re all fucked up in our own way, Macy.” He shrugs. “I hope Landon opens his eyes before you slip through his fingers and I step in to save the day.”
“That’s it for today. We’ll review briefly in the next class before moving on,” the professor says.
Everyone around us stands shuffling books and papers before gathering all their belongings and leaving class. I reach down to grab my purse off the floor but Will beats me to it.
“Thanks,” I say taking it from him and slinging it on my shoulder.
“I’m serious, Macy. When he fucks up I’m holding you to our date,” Will says with a smirk on his face as his cheeks burn red. He’s still trying to impress me even though I just shot him down.
I step past him and into the aisle, “And I’ll be ready.”
Chapter Five
November 3, 2013
Landon
I took a few days before I called Madison to tell her about what happened with Macy. When I left Macy’s dorm I went straight to the gym and beat the shit out of the punch bag until my knuckles were raw and bloody. I would have kept going if one of the trainers hadn’t stopped me.
We went into his office where he wrapped up my hands and told me if I did that stupid shit again I was going to be benched for a game. I agreed that I wouldn’t make them bleed again. I never said I wouldn’t hit the bag again because honestly I needed to take my anger out on something. I’d prefer it be Jay’s face for what he did but I’d probably wind up dead in a ditch somewhere. Just thinking about what else could have happened with Jay and Macy makes my blood boil all over again.
“Landon,” Madison says so groggy that I wonder what she’s high on when she answers the phone.
“You popping pills now too?” I jump right in. No point in holding back.
“What are you talking about?” she says defensively.
I huff. “Your sister took your pills that Jay gave her at a party.”
“What?” Madison sounds awake now. “What do you mean pills?”
“Jay saw her at a party, he gave her the pills. He assumed it was you. Does he not know you have a twin?” I’m getting irritated as fuck.
“Landon, you know how Jay is. We barely talk.”
“No, Madison, all you do is fuck.”
That was an asshole thing to say but I’m fucking pissed that Macy took those pills and could have been put in a bad situation. Pissed she was even involved at all. She’s too good for this goddamn shit.
November 7, 2013
Stanford, California
Cardinals vs Ducks
We’re in Stanford, California. We got in yesterday and we’ve been busy with practices and watching tapes. I’ve been studying my opponents, keeping up with my game. I’m pumped as I think we all are.
“You ready, Hayes?” Colton asks as we’re getting suited up.
I nod. “You?”
“Always.”
Coach does his game day speech before we hit the field. We’re all in our zones ready to rock the Cardinals.
The first quarter of the game we don’t score but that’s okay. The Cardinals are up by a touchdown, no big deal. Saylor is trying to hype us all up. Patting guys on the asses and slapping guys on the helmet after they run off the field.
“That’s the way to sack’em, Declan.”
Declan who already has his helmet off before stepping off the field gives Saylor a warning look. He hates being slapped on the ass and we all do it from time to time just to mess with him.
The second quarter we’re scoreless again but the Cardinals score ten