long. Her eyes on me. Her hands on me. Her body stretched out against mine, warm and sleepy.
At some point I stop imagining the way things were and start picturing the way things could have been if everything else in my life had gone another way.
But if I had been normal, if I had a family that gave a shit, I might never have met her in the first place. I’d do all of this again if it meant being with her.
They take a minute to gather themselves, my team of assigned torturers. Blood from a cut on my forehead stings my eyes while they circle around me. I don’t bother looking. Their shadows will get closer, and when they do, more damage will come. I flex my hands behind the chair and try to keep circulation moving through them. Pointless tasks to pass the time.
A fist into my gut yanks me back to the present.
“Of course if you tell me everything I want you know,” he continues conversationally, as if he didn’t just strike a fatal blow, as if he isn’t panting and sweating from exertion, “then I won’t have any reason to question her. She’d be safe.”
This is a lie, of course. It’s part of the torture dance. The rhythm.
Two of them come close and tip the chair. My skull helpfully breaks the fall. Blurred-out vision is a good sign that they’ll crack it soon enough and then I’ll be out of my misery. One well-placed kick to the head and it’s lights out.
My heart speeds up at the thought. When I die here, that’s the end. There’s no hope for Holly. I’m the reason she’s valuable to them at all. If I’m no longer on this plane of existence they’ll kill her and bag her and the world will never know where she went.
The only way to help her is to stay alive.
The only thing to look at down here on the floor is boots.
Black boots.
Steel-toed boots.
The boots move out of sight and my body braces. It’s hard to fathom the exact pain of getting kicked with steel-toed boots. My muscles know it’s coming anyway.
They wait until I relax, then aim the first kick at my gut.
Something comes loose in there. Bone, maybe. Part of an organ. Probably something essential, but it’s sheared away now and my entire gut feels thick with blood. This is the perfect interval to land another kick, and—
Fuck.
They do.
One of them puts a boot on my knee and presses down. He starts slow and increases the pressure until the full weight of him is on the joint. I’d be a surgery case if I could get out of here. Gather round, med students. See what a broken body really is. But that’s the joke, isn’t it? I’m not getting out.
The pressure releases from my knee at the same moment another kick lands in my stomach. I taste pennies and spit blood in the general direction of the closest steel-toed boots.
“Tell me who’s paying you. Who hired you to kill the colonel.”
“No one,” I grind out.
“If you don’t tell me, I’ll have to ask the pretty girl with the brown eyes and the brown hair and the pretty tits. You ever fuck those tits? Bet they feel great around your dick.”
“I’m going to beat your face in with my fist,” I say between gritted teeth.
“That’s my line, dickwad.”
My torturers hold a brief meeting somewhere above my head and decide to pick me up off the floor. This is not an improvement. I thought they’d kick me to death down here, which I had planned for, and now what? Now the chair’s back up in its place.
One of them stands in front of me, the toe of his boot on top of my foot, and deals glancing blows to my face while another one unties my hands.
My shoulders scream from being held in this position and suddenly freed, the pain a warning that it’s a trap. And of course it is. Of course my hands are only free for a minute, and then they’re above my head, held in place by a thick length of rope. Turns out there’s rope hanging from the ceiling. Every good torture factory needs rope hanging down from the ceiling.
Enough rope to hold a man in place for a series of electric shocks.
Water is the first part of the plan. At first I think there’s two of them coming with the bucket but it’s only double vision. It’s the