see him put away.
Dimitri, understanding my need to rush in and take action, seemed surprised by my unusual behavior. "You're right - she should be there, but again, it's nothing I can do anything about. You keep thinking I can control this, but I can't."
"But did you do everything you could?" I thought back to Adrian's words in the dream, about how Dimitri could have done more. "You have a lot of influence. There must be something. Anything."
"Not as much influence as you think. I've got a high position here at the Academy, but in the rest of the guardian world, I'm still pretty young. And yes, I did actually speak up for you."
"Maybe you should have spoken up louder."
I could sense him shutting down. He'd discuss most things reasonably but wouldn't encourage me when I was just being a bitch. So, I tried to be more reasonable.
"Victor knows about us," I said. "He could say something."
"Victor has bigger things to worry about with this trial than us."
"Yeah, but you know him. He doesn't exactly act like a normal person would. If he feels like he's lost all hope of getting off, he might decide to bust us just for the sake of revenge."
I'd never been able to confess my relationship with Dimitri to Lissa, yet our worst enemy knew about it. It was weirder even than Adrian knowing. Victor had figured it out by watching us and gathering data. I guess when you're a scheming villain, you get good at that stuff. He'd never made the knowledge public, though. Instead, he'd used it against us with the lust charm he'd made from earth magic. A charm like that wouldn't work if there wasn't already attraction in place. The charm just cranked things up. Dimitri and I had been all over each other and had been only a heartbeat away from having sex. It had been a pretty smart way for Victor to distract us without using violence. If anyone had tried to attack us, we could have put up a good fight. But turn us loose on each other? We had trouble fighting that.
Dimitri was silent for several moments. I knew he knew I had a point. "Then we'll have to deal with that as best we can," he said at last. "But if Victor's going to tell, he's going to do it whether or not you testify."
I refused to say anything else until we got to the church. When we did, Father Andrew told us that after going over some more things, he'd decided he really only needed one more box brought over to Ms. Davis.
"I'll do it," I told Dimitri crisply, once the priest was out of earshot. "You don't have to come."
"Rose, please don't make a big deal about this."
"It is a big deal!" I hissed. "And you don't seem to get it."
"I do get it. Do you really think I want to see Victor loose? Do you think I want us all at risk again?" It was the first time in a long time I'd seen his control on the verge of snapping. "But I told you, I've done all I can do. I'm not like you - I can't keep making a scene when things don't go my way."
"I do not."
"You're doing it right now."
He was right. Some part of me knew I'd crossed a line ... but just like with everything else recently, I couldn't stop talking.
"Why did you even help me today?" I demanded. "Why are you here?"
"Is that so strange?" he asked. He almost looked hurt.
"Yes. I mean, are you are you trying to spy on me? Figure out why I messed up? Make sure I don't get into any trouble?"
He studied me, brushing hair out of his eyes. "Why does there have to be some ulterior motive?"
I wanted to blurt out a hundred different things. Like, if there wasn't a motive, then that meant he just wanted to spend time with me. And that made no sense, because we both knew we were only supposed to have a teacher-student relationship. He of all people should know that. He was the one who'd told me.
"Because everyone has motives."
"Yes. But not always the motives you think." He pushed open the door. "I'll see you later."
I watched him go, my feelings a tangle of confusion and anger. If the situation hadn't been so strange, I would have almost said it was like we'd just gone on a date.
Chapter 10
Ten
THE NEXT DAY,