care less. I’m giggling as he moves and he ends the dance by dipping me backwards like they do in the movies. My heart melts and I’m pretty sure I’m wearing the goofiest grin imaginable right now. Jensen’s smirk turns into a gorgeous smile as he looks down at me and he lowers his lips to mine. He kisses me slowly like he’s savouring me and my heart pounds in my chest. When he pulls back I get the overwhelming urge to say a certain three words to him, as soon as the thought crosses my mind it’s quickly followed by panic, fortunately he doesn’t seem to notice my internal freak out.
“Let’s get dinner done, I’m up for more drinking” I chuckle as he rights me and we go back to getting everything ready.
My eyes drift over to my guys sat in the living room before they land on Atlas, who is already staring back, I smile and turn back to chopping up the veg.
Atlas
“You alright man?” Rafe asks me.
It’s still odd to hear him speak but it just goes to show how much influence Ever has over him, over them all. I’ve got to admit it seemed odd to me when I realised that they were still so affected by losing her when they were kids, when I first met them in freshmen year.
I get it now.
Fucking hell do I get it now.
She approached me without any fear, she wasn’t even just masking it, she genuinely wasn’t afraid of me and I think that terrifies the fuck out of me. I’m an intimidating guy not just because of my size but I don’t exactly give off happy, approach me vibes but she just breezed right past all my fucking defences like they were made of fucking paper and I have a feeling she’s in now and won't be going fucking anywhere. I have no chance of rebuilding those defences against her. It’s still too early to know whether I’ll want to or not yet.
With that terrifying thought, I turn my attention back to her. Not that I’ve really taken my eyes off of her since she kissed my scar, no one kisses my scar, even girls I fuck avoid it like it’s somehow catching. I wonder if she would still look at me without fear if she knew how far it extends or even the story behind how I got it. I doubt it, that would be too good to be true.
I shake my head at my ridiculous thoughts.
How has this wraith of a girl got me so tied up in knots already.
My eyes connect with Jensen’s as he approaches Ever’s swaying body, he grins knowingly at me and nods once, almost like he gets it and it’s ok. Out of all the guys Jensen understands me the best because the darkness that rules me live inside him too, he just has the option to push his back.
I watch as she starts dancing, her tight little body swaying to the beat and making my dick hard. As Jensen spins her around the kitchen, her eyes lit up with joy, I look around at the guys. Surprisingly there’s no jealousy or tension between them, they just look happy that she’s happy and that one of them can do it for her.
Rafe’s crazy as fuck plan might actually work for them.
I ignore the pang that hits my deadened heart when I don’t include myself in the idea.
Even when Jensen kisses the fuck out of her, they don’t seem bothered, if anything they look like they want to join them. I can’t say I blame them, watching Trick and Cash with her earlier was hot and it shocked the shit out of me that I thought that. Riot just smirked this irritating as fuck grin at me like he knew something I didn’t.
The fucker.
“Atlas?” Rafe questions again and I realise that I’ve been too busy watching Ever and Jensen and didn’t answer his question.
I glance at him briefly catching his smirk before my gaze switches back Ever as if it’s completely out of my hands.
It’s a compulsion.
I don’t know what it is about her, actually I do. Not only is she stunningly beautiful but she saw beyond my mask with an ease that should of terrified me, and instead of leaving me to feel exposed and admittedly vulnerable, she showed me her own demons.
She has almost as many shadows in her eyes as I do in mine and it makes my teeth