though I am only in Trick’s t-shirt and having so little clothing between us would be far too much of temptation. I am barely managing to keep the no sex rule I made myself. Granted being on my period and now wounded is helping to keep the desire under control but with each touch and kiss I want them more and not just because of sex, although I’ll admit that is a part of it but it’s more that I want there to be no secrets between us. I want what Kat, Marc and Rich have.
I want them.
I can’t help but hope that they are going to want it too, even though it seems unlikely. There are six of them and only one of me. I desperately hope that if by some miracle they do want to try a polyamorous relationship that it’s all of them and not just some of them. I know that sounds greedy but we’re a unit, if not all of them were comfortable with it then I wouldn’t be able to try either. It wouldn’t be the same. My feelings for each of them are completely equal.
I feel like an idiot if I’m being honest because now that I’ve let hope enter my heart it’s burrowing deeper and digging it’s claws in. It’s going to hurt like hell if they don’t take the fact that I like them all very well. Which in reality, when would five guys ever agree to sharing one girl? Especially one as broken as me.
Jensen is still stood at the end of the bed and I can’t take it.
“Pass me that blanket and cushion?” I ask pointing to the chair in the corner of the room.
“Sure” he hands them over to me and I scoot further up the bed planting a kiss on Riot and Luc’s cheek’s as I go just because I can’t seem to help myself. I cross my legs being careful to wrap the blanket under my cream one so I don’t get cream on the duvet and then put the pillow in my lap.
“Come here then” I grin as Jensen’s smile widens and he crawls up the bed sighing happily as he lies down and gets comfortable.
“You spoil him” Cash chuckles and the others grunt in agreement.
“I’ll spoil all of you in different ways” I reply, smirking.
“Fair point, Dragonfly” Trick smirks. “Your phone went off whilst you were in the bathroom.”
“You know you could buy a new one now, you know one with apps?” Luc says cheekily and I stick my tongue out at him.
“Careful with that tongue Ever” Cash warns smirking.
“Sorry, Sir” I grin wickedly as his eyes darken, my gaze switching to Trick who has exactly the same reaction.
Riot chuckles next to me as he hands me my phone. “Trouble” he says simply and I grin as Rafe grunts in agreement with Riot.
Opening my phone, I see I’ve finally got a message from Rylie, sent only ten or so minutes ago.
Rylie: I am so fucking sorry I didn’t reply sooner. That fucking stalker dickhead, at least he’s dealt with now. I’m coming over tomorrow for movies and chocolate and not leaving for the entire day until I know for sure you’re ok.
Me: Don’t worry about it Ry and that sounds awesome I’ll see you then, eleven ok?
Rylie: Definitely, see you then girl.
“Everything ok?” Rafe asks curiously.
“Yeah it’s just Rylie, she’s coming to hang out tomorrow, I think she wants to spend some time just us” I say, I don’t particularly want to spend the whole day away from them again but I can’t just ignore Rylie that wouldn’t be fair.
“Sure we can hang out in Trick's room again, we’ll be here. We’ve got no plans to leave you anytime soon” Cash adds.
“Sounds good guys, did you guys get extra clothes and stuff for Atlas in case he’s travelling light? It’s Christmas eve the day after tomorrow you’re running out of time if you need to buy stuff” I say the thought just occurring to me.
“Actually that’s a good point. He doesn’t fit in any of our stuff we’ll have to go to the mall tomorrow then” Trick says as the others nod.
“Sounds good, I want to get a couple of things for our trip that I know they don’t have in the little town near the cabin” Rafe adds, his expression thoughtful.
“Yeah and I need to get a new shirt, for the Christmas eve party” Luc says.
“Ok so we’ll do that tomorrow whilst you’re