Sam bit down on his lip and listened. When they arrived at the hospital, Simon said, “Go up and sit with your mom. I’ll meet you up there in a bit.”
“Where are you going?”
“I have to run an errand.”
Sam stared at him.
“What?”
“You let Mom get shot.”
Simon opened his mouth to defend himself, but then he stopped.
“You should have protected her.”
“I know,” Simon said. “I’m sorry.”
Simon moved away from his son then, leaving him alone on the sidewalk. He flashed back to that moment. He saw Luther aiming the gun. He saw himself ducking out of the way so that the bullet hit Ingrid instead of him.
What a chickenshit.
But was that what happened?
Had he really ducked out of the way? He didn’t know. He didn’t think that “memory” was real, but…Stepping back, trying to be objective, he realized that he hadn’t seen any of that, that guilt and time were replacing real memories with ones that would forever wound him.
Could he have done more? Could he have stepped in the way of the bullet?
Maybe.
Part of him recognized that this thought was unfair. It had all happened so fast. There was no time to react. But that didn’t change the reality. He should have done more. He should have pushed Ingrid away. He should have jumped in front of her.
“You should have protected her…”
He headed into Shovlin Pavilion and took the elevator to the eleventh floor. The receptionist led him down the corridor to the lab. A lab technician named Randy Spratt greeted him with a latex-gloved handshake.
“I don’t know why we couldn’t do this through proper channels,” Spratt bristled.
Simon opened up the backpack and handed him the three plastic bags of toothbrushes. He had originally planned on bringing just Paige’s toothbrush, but somewhere along the way he decided that if he was going to travel down this dark, dank road, he might as well travel all the way.
“I need to know if I’m their father.” Simon pointed to the yellow toothbrush that had been Paige’s. “This one is the priority.”
Simon didn’t like doing this, of course. It wasn’t a question of trust, Simon told himself. It was a question of reassurance.
Then again, Simon also realized that was a big fat rationalization.
Didn’t matter.
“You said you could rush the results,” Simon said.
Spratt nodded. “Give me three days.”
“No good.”
“Pardon?”
Simon reached into the backpack and pulled out the wad of cash.
“I don’t understand.”
“This is ten thousand dollars in cash. Get me the results by the end of the day, and I’ll give you ten more.”
Chapter
Twenty-Seven
The Truth was dying.
At least it looked that way to Ash from the foot of his bed.
Casper Vartage’s sons stood on either side of the bed, two devastated sentinels guarding their father in his final days. Sorrow emanated from them. You could feel the grief. Ash didn’t know the brothers’ real names—he wasn’t sure anyone did—nor did he remember or care which one was the Visitor and which the Volunteer.
Dee Dee stood next to Ash, hands clasped, eyes lowered as though in prayer. The two brothers did the same. In the corner, two gray-uniformed women quietly sobbed in unison, almost as if they’d been ordered to provide a soundtrack for the scene.
Only the Truth kept his eyes open and up. He lay in the middle of the bed adorned in some kind of white tunic. His gray beard was long, so too his hair. He looked like a Renaissance depiction of God, like the creation panel in the Sistine Chapel that Ash had first seen in a book in the school library. That image always fascinated him, the idea of God touching Adam, as though hitting the On switch for mankind.
God in that mural had been muscular and strong. The Truth was not. He was decaying almost in real time. But his smile was still radiant, his eyes otherworldly as they met Ash’s. For a moment, maybe longer, Ash understood what was happening in this place. The Truth was tweaking him with just his gaze. The old man’s charisma, even as he lay sick in this bed, was almost supernatural.
The Truth lifted a hand and beckoned for Ash to come closer. Ash turned toward Dee Dee, who nodded that he should go ahead. The Truth’s head didn’t move, but his eyes followed Ash, again like some sort of Renaissance painting. He took Ash’s hand in his. His grip was surprisingly strong.
“Thank you, Ash.”
Ash could feel the pull of the man, his magnetism. He would have never bought fully into it, of