of garlic and butter are heavy in the air.
“How was chess?” I ask Gracie, plucking a grape from the bowl on the counter and popping it into my mouth.
“Fine,” Gracie says with a shrug. She’s sitting at the peninsula, reconnecting my mom’s phone to the Bluetooth speaker my dad got her last Mother’s Day; no matter how many times Gracie does it for her, my mom always insists it doesn’t work. “I won my match.”
“She beat the pants off that smug little fish-face Owen Turner,” my mom—who has never let anyone’s age keep her from declaring them a blood enemy—says gleefully.
I laugh, reaching out and tugging the end of Gracie’s ponytail. “Well done.”
“Thanks,” she says, nodding with satisfaction as the speaker finally connects and the Italian opera music my mom loves fills the kitchen. “He said he was going to have to live the rest of his life in a remote village in Siberia to atone for the shame of losing to a girl.”
“Well, fish-face Owen Turner is welcome to do us all a favor and pack his bags,” I say brightly.
“That’s what I said!” My mom drops a kiss on my temple as she pulls a tub of frozen tomato sauce out of the freezer and sticks it in the microwave. “How was Gram?” she asks, once she’s hit the start button. Her voice is carefully casual, but she can’t disguise the flicker of worry across her face.
“She was fine,” I say, leaving out that one weird moment where she seemed to lose her train of thought. After all, it’s not like there’s anything anyone can do about it, and there’s no point in worrying my mom for no reason. I open the door to the refrigerator, waggle a bag of lettuce in her direction. “You want me to make a salad?”
My mom looks at me for another moment, eyes just slightly narrowed. Sometimes I think she’s psychic when it comes to me lying. “Sure,” she says finally. “A salad would be great.”
Five
Chloe wants to get an early start on her Christmas shopping, so we take the T into the city after school on Thursday to poke through the boutiques on Newbury Street. It’s feeling like the holidays for real now, the old-fashioned lampposts festooned with evergreen wreaths and all the store windows lined with twinkle lights and sprayed with fake snow. The dusky sky is a purple-blue.
“Did you know Bex is writing a novel?” I ask as we wander through the huge Urban Outfitters, pawing through racks of fuzzy sweaters and scented candles. I pick up a giant pair of white plastic sunglasses with heart-shaped lenses and wear them around the store for a while, making dumb faces into every mirror we pass.
Chloe looks at me over a display of coffee-table books. “How do you know that?” she asks.
I raise my eyebrows. “So you did know?”
“No,” she says, putting down the question-a-day journal she’s been considering and turning toward a rack of organic lipstick. “When did he tell you about it?”
“I saw him at Starbucks in Harvard Square over the weekend,” I tell her—aware even as I’m saying it that it sounds a little bit like I’m bragging, and there’s a tiny chance that maybe I am. “We wound up sitting there and talking for, like, two hours.”
Chloe looks surprised. “Seriously?” she asks. “What the heck did you guys even talk about for two hours?”
From the tone in her voice I can’t tell which one of us she thinks would have dragged down the conversation, Bex or me.
“I mean, I don’t know,” I say, suddenly wishing I hadn’t told her. “Random stuff, I guess. His novel, for one thing.”
I fill her in on the plot points, which actually do sound a tiny bit ridiculous now that I’m the one doing the explaining. “He does a better job talking about it,” I promise finally, putting the sunglasses back on the rack.
I’m expecting her to laugh, or at least be really into it, like she was back in September when we spent the full duration of a Harry Potter marathon on cable trying to figure out if he had a secret Instagram, but Chloe only shrugs, winding her scarf around her neck and nodding toward the exit.
“Come on,” she says, “let’s go. They don’t have anything I want here.”
“Okay.” I follow her out onto the bustling rush-hour sidewalk; it got all-the-way dark while we were shopping, a raw, icy snap in the air. “Who are you shopping for, anyway?” I