and down back roads, giggling like kids, a six-pack on the seat for him and a bottle of wine for Mary, and they saved the beer bottles and picked up more, bags of beer bottles, bags of soda bottles, each one of the small ones worth two cents, the big ones worth a nickle. It had been one hell of a weekend, Bart thought now-Mary's hair had been long, flowing out behind her over that imitation-leather coat of hers, the color flaming in her cheeks. He could see her now, walking up a ditch filled with fallen autumn leaves, kicking through them with her boots, producing a noise like a steady low forest fire... then the click of a bottle and she raised it up in triumph, waggled it at him from across the road, grinning like a kid.
They don't have returnable bottles anymore, either, Georgie. The gospel these days is no deposit, no return. Use it up and throw it out.
That Monday, after work, they had turned in thirty-one dollars' worth of bottles, visiting four different supermarkets to spread the wealth around. They had arrived at John's ten minutes before the store closed.
"I'm nine bucks short," he told John
John wrote PAID across the bill of sale that had been taped to the RCA console. "Merry Christmas, Mr. Dawes," he said. "Let me get my dolly and I'll help you out with it."
They got it home, and an excited Dick Keller from the first floor helped him carry it up, and that night they had watched TV until the national anthem had come on the last operating channel and then they had made love in front of the test pattern, both of them with raging headaches from eyestrain.
TV had rarely looked so good since.
Mary came in and saw him looking at the TV, his empty scotch-rocks glass in his hand.
"Your dinner's ready, Bart," she said. "You want it in here?
He looked at her, wondering exactly when he had seen the dare-you grin on her lips for the last time... exactly when the little line between her eyes had begun to be there all the time, like a wrinkle, a scar, a tattoo proclaiming age.
You wonder about some things, he thought, that you'd never in God's world want to know. Now why the hell is that?
"Bart?"
"Let's eat in the dining room," he said. He got up and snapped the TV off.
"All right."
They sat down. He looked at the meal in the aluminum tray. Six little compartments, and something that looked pressed in each one. The meat had gravy on it. It was his impression that the meats in TV dinners always had gravy on them. TV dinner-meat would look naked without gravy, he thought, and then he remembered his thought about Lorne Green for absolutely no reason at all: Boy, I'll snatch you bald-headed.
It didn't amuse him this time. Somehow it scared him.
"What were you sbiling about in the living roob, Bart?" Mary asked. Her eyes were red from her cold, and her nose had a chapped, raw look.
"I don't remember," he said, and for the moment he thought: I'll just scream now, I think. For lost things. For your grin, Mary. Pardon me while I just throw back my head and scream for the grin that's never there on your face anymore. Okay?
"You looked very habby," she said.
Against his will-it was a secret thing, and tonight he felt the needed his secret things, tonight his feelings felt as raw as Mary's nose looked-against his will he said: "I was thinking of the time we went out picking up bottles to finish paying for that TV. The RCA console."
"Oh, that," Mary said, and then sneezed into her hankie over her TV dinner.
He ran into Jack Hobart at the Stop 'n' Shop. Jack's cart was full of frozen foods, heat-and-serve canned products, and a lot of beer.
"Jack!" he said. "What are you doing way over here?"
Jack smiled a little. "I haven't got used to the other store yet, so thought..."
"Where's Ellen?"
"She had to fly back to Cleveland," he said. "Her mother died."
"Jesus, I'm sorry Jack. Wasn't that sudden?"
Shoppers were moving all around them under the cold overhead lights. Muzak came down from hidden speakers, old standards that you could never quite recognize. A woman with a full cart passed them, dragging a screaming three-year-old in a blue parka with snot on the sleeves.
"Yeah, it was," Jack Hobart said. He smiled meaninglessly and looked down into his cart. There was a large yellow