he could sate. The denial of allowing me to come was agonizing. Lucian was knowingly edging me, and every few days, he’d let me orgasm for several hours until it became painful to do so.
“Mmm, you’re fucking delicious, Little Monster. I could drink your pussy for hours and never tire of tasting you come for me. You’re my favorite meal and dessert to consume.” His voice was lust dipped in sin that wrapped around me, driving my body to a pile of mush at his feet. “Finish getting dressed. No makeup tonight, Lena. I want to present you in your true form, with nothing to distract from your natural beauty.”
“Makeup enhances beauty,” I muttered, beyond frustrated with him.
I felt like a piece of meat that he and Lucifer were fighting over. Lucian wanted me at his feet, collared and owned. Lucifer wished to punish me and claim me, but there was more he wanted from me. They both craved ownership, but neither man spoke about loving me. I’d escaped death only to be surrounded by corpses.
“So it does, but some women don’t need it. You’re one of those women,” he muttered. “There will be others inside the club tonight that might act on Lucifer’s behalf, Magdalena. I want you to remain with Devlin and Erie tonight when I am dealing with the others. Once I have openly claimed you, you will go to Erie, who will guard you from Lucifer while I am otherwise occupied.”
“Are you ever going to tell me what transpired with my family, or why you allowed them to die without trying to prevent it from happening?” His emotions shut down, and his eyes turned hard while he watched me searching his face. “You can take down monsters, and even the Devil himself, fears you, Lucian. You could have prevented what happened to them, and you chose not to. I need to know why you did nothing to help them. Please.”
“Get dressed and behave tonight,” he stated, turning on his heel to exit the bathroom, leaving me standing deserted and alone.
Lucian hadn’t told me where I fit in his world, other than I was his. He expected me to stop allowing Lucifer to pull me to him. The thing was, I didn’t know how to keep it from happening. I also wasn’t stupid. I knew Luc wanted more from me than just to be his bride. He had ulterior motives, which I understood. He was the Devil, and if Lucian thought I craved him, then he didn’t know me at all.
Lucifer had ruined my life and ended it, literally. He’d impregnated my sister, which resulted in her death. Hell, they both had destroyed the life I had, yet they seemed to choose to forget their part in what had ultimately happened to me and what I’d become.
Lucian wanted to own me and to keep me at his side.
Lucifer wanted to marry me and make me the Queen of Hell.
Lucian meant the world to me, but he continued keeping secrets.
Lucifer said he would give me the world, but he, too, was keeping things from me.
I didn’t know where I belonged anymore. I missed my brother, who hadn’t even tried to contact me since we’d returned to Club Chaos. My grandmother would have had the words to ease my apprehension and anxiety. My mother would have held me, promising that I was strong enough to endure the changes in my life. I had never been more alone in my life than I was right now, and I was surrounded by men all the time.
Staring at my reflection, I frowned. Erie was here, and she was crazy. She’s also a woman, and I felt like I could talk to her. I missed Kendra, telling her everything that was happening and having her listen and throw out encouragement when needed. I’d never noticed how much I craved female companionship until it had been taken from me.
Smiling, I quickly finished dressing and brushed my hair, excited at the idea of Erie being here. She may have been bat shit crazy, but she was a blast to be around. She was also blunt and a breath of fresh air in a world full of stagnant immortals that didn’t understand human emotions.
Stepping into the bedroom, I smiled at finding Spyder leaning against the door, watching me.
“Hello, Kitty,” he murmured, his gaze dropping to the sexy midnight-blue dress Lucian had chosen for me to wear. “Do I need to reinforce how important it is for