river said I might have to go to hell. You want me to tell you what I did?
To the girl? You did something to a little girl is what youre telling me? Rooneys hand seemed to flutter at his mouth, then he lowered it to his lap.
I think you worked some kind of scam on this Dolan fellow. Im not sure what it is, exactly, but its got your shit-prints on it. You owe me a lot of money, Mr. Rooney. If Im going to hell, if Im already there, in fact, how much you reckon my soul is worth? Dont put your hand on that phone again. You owe me a half million dollars.
I owe you what?
Ive got a gift. I can always tell a coward. I can always tell a liar, too. I think youre both.
What are you doing? Stay away from me.
Out on the beach, a mother up to her hips in the water was scooping her child from a wave, running with it up the incline, her dress ballooning around her, her face filled with panic.
Dont get up. If you get up, thats going to make it a whole lot worse, Preacher said.
What are you doing with that? For Gods sakes, man.
My soul is going to be in the flames because of you. You invoke Gods name now? Put your hand on the blotter and shut your eyes.
Ill get you the money.
Right now, in your heart, you believe what youre saying. But soon as Im gone, your words will be ashes in the wind. Spread your fingers and press down real hard. Do it. Do it now. Or Ill rake this across your face and then across your throat.
With his eyes tightly shut, Artie Rooney obeyed the man who loomed above him on crutches. Then Preacher Jack Collins laid the edge of his barbers razor across Rooneys little finger and mashed down on the back of the razor with both hands.
7
NICK HAD HEARD of blackouts but was never quite sure what constituted one. How could somebody walk around doing things and have no memory of his deeds? To Nick, the terms blackout and copout seemed very similar.
But after Hugo Cistranos had left Nicks backyard, telling him he had until three oclock the next afternoon to sign over 25 percent of his strip joint and restaurant, Nick had gone downstairs to the game room, bolted the door so the children wouldnt see him, and gotten sloshed to the eyes.
When he woke in the morning on the floor, sick and trembling and smelling of his own visceral odors, he remembered watching a cartoon show around midnight and fumbling with a deadbolt. Had he been sleepwalking? He stood at the bottom of the stairwell and stared up the stairs. The door was still locked. Thank God neither his wife nor the children had seen him drunk. Nick didnt believe a father or husband could behave worse than one who was dissolute in front of his wife and children.
Then he saw his car keys on the Ping-Pong table and began to experience flashes of clarity inside his head, like shards of a mirror recon structing themselves behind his eyes, each one containing an image that grew larger and larger and filled him with terror: Nick driving a car, Nick in a phone booth, Nick talking to an emergency dispatcher, headlights swerving in front of his windshield, car horns blowing angrily.
Had he gone somewhere to make a 911 call? He went upstairs to shower and shave and put on fresh clothes. His wife and children were gone, and in the silence he could hear the wind rattling the dry fronds of his palm trees against the eaves. From the bathroom window, the sunlight trapped inside his swimming pool wobbled and refracted like the blue-white flame of an acetylene torch. The entire exterior world seemed superheated, sharp-edged, a garden of cactuses and thorn bushes, scented not with flowers but with tar pots and diesel fumes.
What had he done last night?
Dropped the dime on Hugo? Dropped the dime on himself?
He sat at his breakfast table, eating aspirin and vitamin B, washing it down with orange juice straight out of the carton, his forehead oily with perspiration. He went into his office, hoping to find relief in the deep, cool ambience and solitude of his bookshelves and mahogany furniture and the dark drapes on the windows and the carpet that sank an inch under his feet. A bright red digital 11 was blinking on