accidentally left them in the communal shower).
A small leather satchel was missing from your roommate’s closet (or maybe she’d let a friend use it for Spring Break).
Some of your clothes seemed to be missing (or borrowed without your permission).
Most damningly, you had left an unfinished love letter on your desk—Kiss you in Paris … hold your hand in Rome …
Here, said the sheriff, was proof that you were planning to leave.
Here, said your sister, was proof that you were writing a music review of Madonna’s “Justify my Love.”
There was a boy, though any father of a teenage girl can tell you there is always a boy. He had ruffled hair and rolled his own cigarettes and talked about his feelings far too much for my comfort. You were interested in him, which meant you weren’t really dating yet. There were notes being passed back and forth. Records of late-night phone calls. Soulful mix tapes delivered. You were both so young. This was the beginning of something that might lead to everything or nothing at all.
To answer the obvious question, the boy was camping with his family when you were taken. He had an airtight alibi. A park ranger had seen him with the family. The man had stopped by their campsite to warn them that a coyote had been sighted in the area. He sat with the family by the fire and discussed football with the father because the boy was not a fan.
The park ranger’s contribution to the case did not stop there. He offered the sheriff a possible explanation, an explanation the sheriff later presented as fact.
That same week, the ranger had come across a band of stragglers camping in the woods. They had been moving around the state for a while. They dressed in dark clothing. They cooked their meals on an open fire. They walked down country roads with their hands clasped behind their backs and their heads down. Drugs were involved, because with these sorts of characters, drugs are always involved.
Some called them a cult. Others said they were homeless. Many said they were runaways. Most called them a nuisance. You, my sweet girl, were heard by many of your friends sympathetically referring to them as free spirits, which is why the sheriff assumed that, lacking any other leads, you had simply run off to join them.
You volunteered at the homeless shelter and you drank alcohol even though you were underage and you were caught smoking pot, so it only made sense.
By the time the runaway theory became cemented in the sheriff’s mind, the group of stragglers, the cult, the free spirits— whatever they were called—had moved on. They were eventually located in North Carolina, too stoned and too disbanded to say who had been among them.
“She looks very familiar,” one of the few remaining original members had written in his statement. “But we all have eyes and noses and teeth, so doesn’t that mean that everybody looks familiar?”
This is why we know you were abducted:
You were mad at your mother, but you still came home the day before and talked to her in the kitchen while you did your laundry.
You were furious with your sister, but you still let her borrow your yellow scarf.
You despised your grandmother, but you still left a card to be mailed the following week for her birthday.
While it is not entirely out of the realm of possibility that you would run into the woods and join a group of aimless, wandering vagabonds, it is completely impossible that you would ever do so without telling us first.
This is what we know you did on the day you were taken:
At 7:30 on the morning of Monday, March 4, you joined some friends from the homeless shelter and went to Hot Corner to pass out food and blankets. At 9:48 a.m., Carleen Loper, the desk monitor at Lipscomb Hall, was on duty and recorded your return to the dorm. Your roommate, Nancy Griggs, left for the pottery lab at 10:15 a.m. She said you were tired and had gone back to bed. Your English professor remembers you from his noon workshop. He offered you some editorial suggestions on your Spenser paper. He recalls a lively discussion. (He was later ruled out as a suspect because that evening, he was teaching a class on the other side of campus.)
Around 1:00 p.m., you went to the Tate Student Center where you ate a grilled cheese sandwich and a salad that you shared with Veronica