it out?” he asked. “Is there hope you’ll change your mind? I’ll wait here forever!”
“It’s not my mind!” I said. “I leave this city tonight. Forget me. Forget you ever saw me!”
“My love,” he said softly. “My only love.”
I ran inside, shutting the door. I heard the carriage pull away. I went wild, as I had not since mortal life, beating the walls with my fists, trying to restrain my immense strength and trying not to let loose the howls and cries that wanted to break from me.
Finally I looked at the clock. Three hours left until dawn.
I sat down at the desk and wrote to him:
Marius,
At dawn we will be taken to Moscow. The very coffin in which I rest is to carry me many miles the first day. Marius, I am dazed. I can’t seek shelter in your house, beneath the same roof as the ancient ones. Please, Marius, come to Moscow. Help me to free myself of this predicament. Later you can judge me and condemn me. I need you. Marius, I shall haunt the vicinity of the Czar’s palace and the Great Cathedral until you come. Marius, I know I ask of you that you make a great journey, but please come. I am a slave to this blood drinker’s will.
I love you,
Pandora
Running back out in the street, I hurried in the direction of his house, trying to retrace the path which I had so stupidly ignored.
But what about the heartbeat? I would hear it, that ghastly sound! I had to run past it, run through it, long enough to give Marius this letter, perhaps to let him grasp me by the wrist and force me to some safe place, and drive away before dawn the Asian vampire who kept me.
Then the very carriage appeared, carrying in it my fellow blood drinker from the ball.
He stopped for me at once.
I took the driver aside. “The man who brought me home,” I said. “We went to his house, a huge palace.”
“Yes, Count Marius,” said the driver. “I just took him back to his own home.”
“You must take this letter to him. Hurry! You must go to his house and put it in his hands! Tell him I had no money to give you, that he must pay you, I demand that you tell him. He will pay you. Tell him the letter is from Pandora. You must find him!”
“Who are you speaking of?” demanded my Asian companion.
I motioned to the driver to leave! “Go!” Of course my consort was outraged. But the carriage was already on its way.
Two hundred years passed before I learned the very simple truth: Marius never received that letter!
He had gone back to his house, packed up his belongings and, the following night, left Dresden in sorrow, only finding the letter long after, as he related it to the Vampire Lestat, “a fragile piece of writing,” as he called it, “that had fallen to the bottom of a cluttered traveling case.”
When did I see him again?
In this modern world. When the ancient Queen rose from her throne and demonstrated the limits of her wisdom, her will and her power.
Two thousand years after, in our Twentieth Century still full of Roman columns and statues and pediments and peristyles, buzzing with computers and warmth-giving television, with Cicero and Ovid in every public library, our Queen, Akasha, was wakened by the image of Lestat on a television screen, in the most modern and secure of shrines, and sought to reign as a goddess, not only over us, but over humankind.
In the most dangerous hour, when she threatened to destroy us all if we did not follow her lead—and she had already slaughtered many—it was Marius with his reasoning, his optimism, his philosophy who talked to her, tried to calm her and divert her, who stalled her destructive intent until an ancient enemy came to fulfill an ancient curse, and struck her down with ancient simplicity.
David, what have you done to me in prodding me to write this narrative?
You have made me ashamed of the wasted years. You have made me acknowledge that no darkness has been ever deep enough to extinguish my personal knowledge of love, love from mortals who brought me into the world, love for goddesses of stone, love for Marius.
Above all, I cannot deny the resurgence of this love for Marius.
And all around me in this world I see evidence of love. Behind the image of the Blessed Virgin and her Infant Jesus,