palms on her thighs to let them do their thing. Only, they didn’t move. Allie seemed encouraged by the fact that I was now touching her and egged me on, putting her hands on mine and dragging them higher up to the hem of her denim shorts.
“So many women and still so shy.” Allie cooed when I slid my hands out from underneath hers as they reached the rough edges of her denim.
“I’m the furthest fucking thing from shy.” When I was with a woman that did something for me, at least. “If you had any idea how many women I’ve fucked, you definitely wouldn’t call me shy.”
“What is it then? You don’t like sex?” She tilted her head. Then she reached behind her back, unhooked her bra, and threw it off. Her breasts were small but round. Her nipples dusky pink and erect, and yet I had no desire to touch them. Or to pull them into my mouth.
Just nothing.
“I love sex, but it just doesn’t quite satisfy me anymore.” Fuck knew why I’d told her that. Allie seemed surprised too but not discouraged. She smiled what was probably supposed to be a naughty, sexy smile, but it looked kind of like a sneer. Then she slid to her knees.
I stared at her for a while, realizing that I couldn’t go through with it, just as she told me, “Let me satisfy you.”
“Put your clothes back on, Allie. I’ll call you cab.”
Sitting back on her heels, her confused eyes met mine. “What?”
“I said put your shirt back on and let me call you a cab.” I pushed up off the couch and headed across the room to grab her shirt and her bra, handing them back to her.
“You don’t have to do that. I don’t have to leave yet. Don’t worry. Just sit down. You just need to relax. I’ll make it good for you.” She stood and pushed my hand with her clothes in it away.
“No, Allie. This isn’t happening. You gotta go.” I ran my free hand through my hair as I tried to figure out how the fuck to get her out of there.
“Come on, Caleb. I’m already here. Just fuck me already.” Her wide eyes were begging, along with her tone. If she’d had any chance of changing my mind, she’d blown it by begging. That wasn’t my bag, not in that way.
It disgusted me actually. “Really? Just fuck you? You should have some pride in yourself. Don’t stoop to that level. It’s beneath you.”
She looked stunned, then hurt, and anger filled her eyes, and the next thing I knew, her tiny palm connected with my cheek in a slap that barely stung. I shouldn’t have, but I couldn’t help but laugh at her attempt.
“Seriously?” she screeched as I laughed. “I’ll call my own fucking cab. Thanks for nothing, Caleb!”
Allie stormed out, the front door slamming behind her. It registered that I should probably have felt guilty for leading the girl on, but I just didn’t care. She’d known what she was getting into, and any person who behaved the way she did had to be used to rejection.
What was more concerning to me was why I couldn’t go through with it, why I didn’t just let her suck me off and then fuck her like she was literally begging me to do. I knew that it was because of Kelly that I couldn’t do it, but why? That was my problem.
As soon as I’d seen Allie’s ribs pushing at her slender body, I’d been able to think of nothing but Kelly’s voluptuous curves. Her full breasts and reddish nipples. When I’d tried to imagine what it would’ve felt like to have Allie’s lips wrapped around my cock, it was Kelly’s mouth I wanted.
Just the memory of Kelly’s blonde hair between my legs, her hot mouth around my tip, was doing what Allie half naked on my lap hadn’t achieved. I was already getting hard to nothing but memories and my imagination.
What the fuck did that mean about me and Kelly?
Chapter 14
Kelly
After finishing off at least half of the menu at the Mexican place, Alicia and I decided to call it a night. Jared picked her up in a limo, and though he’d offered me a ride home, I decided to take a cab instead. I was sure that they were going to get up to unspeakable things in that car, and moreover, I could hardly ask him to drop me off at his brother’s