there was no way you were making enough money.”
“Is that why you came today?”
“No, I’d no idea where you were working. It was Y. K. Wong who took me there.”
I straightened up. “Why?”
“Don’t know. But he’s been asking about you in a roundabout way. And also if I’d noticed any of the specimens in the pathology room were missing. I played dumb, of course. Told him that I hadn’t finished counting them.”
So Y. K. Wong hadn’t said anything to Shin yet about locking me into the storeroom. Was bringing Shin to the dance hall a way of putting pressure on me? A housewife came out from a neighboring gate and gave us a sideways glare. It was Saturday afternoon and able-bodied young people shouldn’t be sitting on the pavement like this, so we started walking again in a desultory way. If we hit a main street, we were bound to find a bus stop, and then, I supposed, Shin would go back to Batu Gajah. The thought filled me with desolation.
“He also asked whether I’d heard about a weretiger’s finger.”
“A what?”
“Apparently, the hospital is supposed to have the finger of a weretiger in its collection.”
My mind leaped to the night of the party and Ren’s peculiar reaction, how he’d bolted out into the darkness when he’d heard about the tiger. I frowned. “Koh Beng mentioned it when we were cleaning out the pathology storeroom.”
“Well, Y. K. said that people always wanted to buy it.”
We’d reached a bus stop. There were other people, so we had to stop talking about severed fingers and weretigers, but I wondered if Y. K. Wong was secretly selling off pathology specimens. I’d heard that the hard stone from a tiger’s eye and the bezoars formed in the bellies of goats and monitor lizards fetched outrageous sums on the black market. They were said to bring good fortune, bewitch a lover, or charm an enemy to death. I thought about the withered, blackened finger that had mysteriously returned to me and was, even now, rattling in my handbag.
“Shin,” I said, opening my bag so he could glimpse it.
His eyes widened. “Where’d you get that?”
At that moment, the bus arrived. We were lucky enough to find two seats and as it rattled onward, I told him everything that had happened. Everything, including the dreams and Ren and his lost twin, Yi, across the river. I had to lean over and speak softly in his ear so that no one else would hear. Sometimes I think I will never forget that journey across town. The baking heat of the afternoon sun, the dusty breeze blowing in on us, smelling like the crushed Kaffir lime leaves in the lap of the woman in front of us. Shin’s sharp profile as he gazed out of the window, listening intently to my words. I would never get tired of looking at him, I thought.
* * *
As luck would have it, this bus went across town to the Ipoh Railway Station, a white and gold imperial folly in the afternoon sunlight.
“I’ll see you off,” I said, trying to look cheerful.
“And where are you going?”
I clutched my handbag tighter. “Back to Mrs. Tham’s.”
“Liar,” he said, without rancor. “Where are you really going?”
There was no use dissembling. “I’m going to Taiping. There’s an afternoon train.” I couldn’t bear to go back to Mrs. Tham’s, lest Robert should turn up, all red-faced and indignant. Or worse, full of apologetic recriminations. Besides, there was something else I’d promised to do.
To my surprise, Shin just looked at me. “How much money do you have?”
A fair amount, as a matter of fact. The Mama had handed me not only the money from the party but also my back pay.
“I’ve got money, too. Let’s go.” He started walking swiftly, long legs eating up the tiled floor of the station. “Time to do some grave-robbing.”
* * *
Of course we weren’t going to be digging up corpses, I said indignantly, after Shin had bought us tickets. We were going to put something back, so it was more like grave-restoring. Shin said it was pretty much the same thing. I didn’t know how to explain it, this urgent conviction that if I did what Ren asked, perhaps he wouldn’t die.
“Yi said that the order was all messed up, and that we should try to fix it.”
“What order?”
“The way things have been done. Like a ritual.” I frowned, trying to recall what I knew about Confucianism.
“Has it occurred to you that you might