up to another man. That was partly from my ex, and partly because every guy I’d seen in porn—gay or straight—was hung like a bull. Seeing Devin on the screen, I’d realized we were about the same size. In person, same deal. No reason to be intimidated by size. Awesome.
I tightened my grip, and Devin’s hips jerked and his fingers dug into my shoulders.
“Oh God,” he breathed between kisses.
“Like that?”
He made a sound that was definitely yes, and he kissed me again, and I stroked him as he rocked his hips and fucked into my hand. Just doing this much—stroking him and making out—I was more turned on than I’d ever been, even in the last few seconds before an orgasm.
Definitely, definitely into dudes. This is amazing.
And nerves could go to hell—I wanted more.
“So, um…” I swallowed. “I’ve never sucked dick in my life.”
“Do you want to?”
I hated that I actually had to think about that, but with as much as I’d questioned the hell out of everything relating to my sexuality, I did have to think about it. But only for a second. “Yeah. I do.”
Devin’s grin made my spine tingle. “Don’t let me stop you.”
“Just, um…” I laughed self-consciously. “Remember I’ve never done it.”
“I know. When in doubt—do what you know you enjoy. Long as you’re not biting me or something, you’re good.”
I laughed again and brushed a kiss across his lips. Then, pretending I wasn’t as nervous as I absolutely was, I moved down so I could try this.
Do what you know you enjoy.
Okay. Well. I definitely knew I liked a lot of attention to the head, and that was a lot less intimidating than figuring out how to take his entire cock in my mouth. So, I steadied him with my fingers around the base, and I cautiously ran my tongue around the head.
“Ooh, fuck,” Devin moaned. “Do that again.”
I did, this time with a little more confidence, and I immediately liked it because of the way he gasped and swore. And I liked doing it too. Having my mouth on a guy’s dick was… Fuck, it was hot.
And maybe since this was easy, I could try a little more. Still keeping him steady with one hand, I cautiously took him into my mouth. Not far—just enough for the head to meet the roof of my mouth. Maybe I’d try deep-throating another time, but I liked this, and from the way he whispered my name and his fingers twitched between my shoulders, he liked it too. It helped that he wasn’t cartoonishly huge—I could tease and explore him without straining or choking.
Sliding my lips and tongue along his hard cock and the thick head turned me on, but nothing in the world was hotter than the sharp gasps and low groans coming from Devin’s lips. The feel of his dick in my mouth was amazing, but it was the whimpered “oh, fuck, do that again” that made this so sexy I could barely stand it.
So I did it again. And again. I explored every inch of him from the head all the way down to his balls. Even though I didn’t have half a clue what I was doing, the sounds Devin made and the way his whole body trembled and tensed told me I was doing just fine.
“Jase…” He squirmed. “Jase, come up… Come up here.”
I lifted myself up and moved toward him, and he met me halfway, gripping the back of my neck and claiming a hard kiss before we sank together onto the pillows.
“Loved what you were doing,” he panted against my lips. “Just… God, I needed to kiss you again.” And he did kiss me again, holding my hair painfully tight as he moaned against my lips. I thought I was turned on before. Having a man in my arms who was shaking with need? For me? That was beyond sexy, and I wanted to do everything. I wanted to be absolutely drunk on him before this was over.
“You said we don’t have to do everything,” I said. “Can we, um, do more?”
“Anything you want,” he said breathlessly. “What do you have in mind?”
“I… Well…” I swallowed. “I really want to fuck.”
Devin shivered, biting his lip. “You ever had anal before?”
I nodded. “On top, though.”
He grinned. “Good. Then you already know how it all works.”
“Go slow and use a lot of lube, right?”
“Bingo. Do you have lube?”
I motioned toward the nightstand.
He was closer, so he reached for it, giving me a gorgeous