she came back with the drinks they’d requested he was still declaiming.
“It’s on Cruel Scars of the Bone Beast. Then there’s ‘Uterus of the Earthworm.’ ”
Susan leaned down with the drinks tray, feeling like a waitress.
“Earthworms don’t have uteruses,” said Addison.
T. had just come in and was standing beside Casey, smiling faintly at the conversation. He lifted his glass to drink.
“Not the point,” said Sal. “It’s a dark hellish vision.”
“Well, but—” started Nancy.
“What she might mean,” interrupted Addison, “is it’s this, you know, kinda bad poetry.”
“It’s not fucking gay-ass poetry, man,” said Sal. “It’s music.”
“But—”
“You just don’t get it,” said Sal, and shook his head in disgust.
“I had to dissect a worm once,” said Nancy to Casey. “Back in Invertebrate Biology.”
“Excellent,” said Sal.
“Could you check on Angela?” asked Casey, as Susan began to move away. “She’s lying down upstairs. In the room with the Arctic fox.”
“Of course,” said Susan.
She passed Reg and Tony on her way to the stairs, standing in front of an eagle diorama outside the birds-of-prey room.
“It’s totally Natural History Museum,” said Reg. “Circa 1950.”
“I love it,” said Tony.
“Me too,” said Susan, and they gazed at the eagle. It had its wings back and talons out, coming in for a landing. Beneath it, on a gritty stretch of fake sand, a mouse cowered.
Walking up the stairs, she stopped and stood still on the landing, as usual. No airplanes, but there was a searchlight weaving back and forth across the sky. Always some light, in that black square—what you observed was forms of light—she tried to assess her drunkenness. She needed to drink more water, clearly. She breathed in, found a familiar body against her, and leaned back, contented.
“Ten minutes alone,” said Jim into her ear. “I can get the job done in ten. Done and done well.”
“I have to check on Angela.”
She was drunk enough to have a pleasant feeling of chaos—a fluid chaos, not harmful but thrilling—she could welcome it, she could feel a kind of carefree anger against the cousins brewing in her and trying to supplant the fear of them. She walked with Jim along the darkened second-floor hallway and knocked on the door of the Arctic room, then, when there was no answer, pushed it open. Under the blaze of overhead light the white fox crept forever, but no older woman.
“She’s nowhere,” said Jim.
“She has this, you know, early-onset Alzheimer’s, basically,” she said in a low voice. “With some other things going on too. Mixed features, I think the shrinks call it. We need to find her.”
They checked the other bedrooms, one by one—Rainforest, Himalayas, Indian Subcontinent. Then onto the barren wastes of Mongolia and The Soviet Union. She rarely came in here. Beyond an amateurishly painted Lenin, The Soviet Union had nothing but a massive, shaggy animal that looked like a bison, marked WILD TIBETAN YAK, and a sturdy horse marked EQUUS PRZEWALSKI.
“This guy shot horses?” asked Jim.
Finally they had checked every room save horned beasts. As they approached she could hear the shower running from her own bathroom and in a flash she remembered: the woman had tried to kill herself in a bathtub once, after her husband left. The onset of her decline.
“Wait,” she told Jim, and rushed forward to open the bathroom door. “Angela? Is that you?”
Only the small bulbs over the vanity were lit. When she flicked on the rest she saw Angela standing up in the bathtub—not naked, small mercies. She had a towel wrapped around her and her hair plastered down on her head and the shower water was spattering down behind her.
Susan was relieved.
“Are you OK?” she asked, and reached past Angela to turn off the faucets. Water fell on her hair and face as she stretched her arm out. She looked around hastily till she saw the hook that held her terrycloth robe. “Here. Put this on.”
Angela looked at her blankly. Soaking wet, she was pitiable.
“Here, I’ll—right arm—left arm—there you go,” and she tied the belt around the slim waist and snaked the towel out from beneath. “Why don’t you come with me.”
Angela’s clothes were nowhere to be seen so Susan led her toward the closet. Jim stood next to the open bedroom window smoking, holding his cigarette outside.
“Could you go find T.?” she asked him. “Or Casey. Either of them will do.”
She wouldn’t ask Angela what she had been doing in the shower—it seemed a rude intrusion. And when she asked about the clothes again the woman looked vacant, so she held up